The Sassy Pear

Finding my way through my forties

Way to go, me! — January 15, 2015

Way to go, me!

So last night, I couldn’t sleep. It took me awhile to fall asleep and then a couple of hours later I woke up and could NOT get back to sleep (I may have been replaying Zumba songs in my head, ahem). I think I finally drifted off around 3 am and got up to get ready for work at 6am.

So yeah…tired today.

I got suuuuper sleepy around 4pm and was beginning to talk myself out of going to Zumba tonight:

I’m so tired, I just have no energy for dancing tonight. I probably don’t even have enough energy to make it through the whole hour. I should probably stay home and rest. Yes, I think I’ll just go home and take a nap and skip Zumba tonight. 

Except that once I got home, I started to debate the pros and cons of going:

If I go, I’ll probably feel better afterward. If I stay home, I’ll just end up laying around all evening doing nothing and then I’ll feel even more like crap. I should just go. If I don’t go, I’ll be disappointed in myself. I’ve never been disappointed in myself when I’ve gone before. Okay fine. I’ll go

So even though I really wanted to stay home and veg on the couch while watching American Idol, I suited up and went to shake my groove thang. It was fun and sweaty and I’m glad I went.

So…yay me! I’m kinda proud of myself for winning this round. I don’t always win, but this time I did and I’m happy about it.

This is me high fiving myself.
This is me high fiving myself.
Everybody Zumba! — September 1, 2010

Everybody Zumba!

Zumba crowd
Image by Cimm via Flickr

Oh my gosh y’all – Zumba was so much fun last night!!! It was the first class being offered at this gym and I guarantee there were 100+ people there – it was packed!! I went by myself since my buddy T couldn’t go, and out of all those 100+ people there, I didn’t know a soul. Granted it was in a town that I don’t usually socialize in, but still that’s pretty sad. I gotta get out more. Of course I came in a couple of minutes before starting and ended up on the very end on the front row, but really I didn’t mind. It was kind of nice being anonymous and I gotta say I started getting my groove on once I got the steps down. It was a bunch of giggly, sweaty fun!! Oh, and the best part – since it was the first night – it was FREE! Woohoo!! I can’t wait to go back again next week!

Now that I’ve been going to my yoga class for a month now, I think I’m ready to do some yoga at home on my own. I really like vinyasa yoga, where the poses flow from one movement into another. My yoga instructor does not flow – we practice a pose, take a little break, then practice another pose, etc. I’m happy with this because I think it really helps with technique, but I’m ready for a little more challenge.

So…(awkward segue in 3..2…1) I think I’m going through THE CHANGE (that’s what my mother always calls it –THE CHANGE) because I skipped a period this month. Shawn had a vasectomy after #3 was born, and since Brad Pitt hasn’t been in town lately, I know I’m not preggers. I never skip my periods. Ever. I’m so regular you could set your watch by my cycle. I’m not ready for the Big M! I’m not even 40 yet!!! I really hoped I would have another 10 years before this started happening, but I guess time marches on even if you lay down in the middle of road thinking it won’t possibly march over you, but then it does and it ends up leaving boot marks all over your forehead. Dammit. Stupid marching time.

Okay well that’s all I got for now. Any of you going through/gone through perimenopause or menopause yet? Anyone ever had a freakish period-skip? I’m dying to hear about your hormonal changes!! 🙂

Shoulding all over myself — August 19, 2010

Shoulding all over myself

This feels different.

I feel different.

I feel like taking things slow and not stressing out about what I’m not doing or what I should be doing. I’m taking things at my own pace and I like it. In my past dieting life I thought:

• I should be eating only the cleanest, most natural, most wholesome foods (rarely did I accomplish this goal)

• I should be running 3-4 days a week

• I should be strength training 2 days per week

• I should do whatever everyone else tells me I should be doing in regard to health and weight loss

Folks, I’m tired of “shoulding” all over myself. I’m sick to death of the “shoulds” in my life – I think I lived by a lot of them and stepping away from them for awhile has been liberating. Since taking a step back, I have now realized that:

• I’m going to do the best I can where food is concerned. Most of my food issues are not intellectual issues, but emotional ones. These issues take time to deal with.

• I’m also going super slow where exercise is concerned. I’ve started with one yoga class per week. In a couple of weeks I’m going to add one Zumba class, so that will make two classes per week. After a month of that I’m going to add a day of walking – that will put me at 3 days per week. After that, I’ll add something else – when the time comes I’ll decide then.

• I’m going to hold off on the running because right now, I just don’t feel like it. Running feels like rushing things – I need to start off with walking for awhile. You have no idea how freeing it is to make this decision!

Karly’s program is a 12 session course. Normally, I would push myself to do one session per week in these kinds of things, but you know what? I’m going to take my time on this 3rd session because it’s about growth, and there are some things I want to mull around a bit before I move on to the next session. And for once, I’m totally okay with “not staying on track”.

So far, I really like taking things slow. Honestly, it might take me a year to figure all this out. Heck it might take me 3 years or 5 years or 10 years. That’s okay! As long as I am growing and moving in a direction that makes me happy and healthy, I can live with that.

Slow and steady, ya know? Also it looks like this turtle is doing the up dog yoga pose!

How do you “should” all over yourself? (thanks to Karly for introducing me to this phrase!!)

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