Interesting conversation with my husband

In keeping with the theme of procrastination for this month, I wanted to discuss a conversation I recently had with my husband about laundry. Yes, laundry. I know, super exciting, but hang with me for a moment, it gets interesting.

We were packing up and getting ready to head home from a weekend getaway with the kids when my husband asked where the dirty laundry should go. I pointed to a trash bag stuffed full of towels, swim suits, socks, and other items that we had worn throughout the weekend, sighed heavily and said woefully “I can’t wait to get home and spend the rest of my weekend doing LAUNDRY”. He said “You act like you don’t like doing laundry” to which I replied “Nobody likes doing laundry!! Do YOU like doing laundry???” He quietly said “Well, sort of…I mean, I like having clean clothes, so yeah, I like doing laundry.”

Whoa.

Back the truck up!

My procrastinator’s brain had never considered that thought before. In my mind, doing laundry = unpleasant task because I would rather be doing something else. It never occurred to me that doing laundry = pleasant task because of the outcome of  clean clothes. I think as a procrastinator, I tend to focus on instant gratification and how what I’m doing is making me feel RIGHT NOW. Digging clothes out of the hamper and loading them into the washer is not a pleasant task – and that’s what I focus on when I’m doing laundry. If, however, I can shift my thinking into “it’s going to feel so good to get this laundry done!” the task at hand might not be so unpleasant.

In relation to weight loss, this can be explained in why it’s sometimes so hard for me to step away from the cookies or get up early to work out. I’m so focused on the taste of the cookie or how comfy my bed feels that it’s difficult to wrap my head around the concept doing something “unpleasant” now is going to yield outcomes that make me feel really good in an hour. For a long time, I never understood how runners could keep doing something that they themselves often deem as awful or hard, but now I think I’m beginning to see that they run for the good feeling they get afterward. Unpleasant task = good outcome, therefore they keep doing the hard thing. *lightbulb*

My husband is not a procrastinator. He takes care of things as soon as they come up, or often before they come up. He is very proactive and also what I call a Long Term Thinker. He is very good at supposing things that might come up long term  and planning ahead and being proactive. I, on the other hand tend to spend most of my time flying by the seat of my pants. In our years together, I have improved and I’m getting better, but I still have a ways to go before I’m up to his level of adulthood. 🙂

In the days since our conversation, I’ve thought a lot about what my husband said and how I can apply it to other chores I tend to put off because they seem unpleasant:

  • At my job, I do a lot of filing and my File Pile can get very tall in a short amount of time. I really dislike filing, but I love seeing that empty space on my desk. So I’ve been trying to file more often, which when I do it more regularly, takes less time overall. Winning!
  • I dislike having to wash my car, but I love having a clean car, so on Saturday I went through the automatic car wash. Yes I paid a little extra for the convenience, but it got done and I didn’t have to think about it anymore.
  • I don’t like to grocery shop on Sundays, but I even like it even less on Mondays after work, so last Sunday I did the shopping for the week. After work on Monday, I went straight home and had to time to read a book for a few minutes before getting dinner started. That was a treat!

I’m still looking for chores/experiences that I can view with a fresh perspective. It’s a different way of thinking and one I hope to adopt into a habit.

So what about you? How do you feel about laundry? Are you a Long Term Thinker and if so, have you always been that way or did you learn it? Or are you like me and constantly drowning in unfinished chores and To-Do lists?

Procrastination and Weight Loss

A couple of weeks ago, I was in the midst of what I like to call my “whirling dervish of weight loss” thoughts. You know those thoughts that seem to come at your brain from all directions and swirl around in your head like an unrelenting tornado that is bent on destroying your sanity? It goes something like this: “This is just UNACCEPTABLE! I have to do something about my weight NOW! But what am I going to do? I’ve already done everything and nothing has worked! But maybe I just didn’t try hard enough…maybe if I try EVEN HARDER… oh gosh I just don’t think I have to energy to start over AGAIN with that plan…I’ll never lose weight, I’ll never be thin again…I might as well just accept that this is how it’s always going to be. I can’t think about this now, I’ll worry about it later…oooh, is that a cupcake?!? I can’t believe I just ate that cupcake. My weight is out of control. This is just UNACCEPTABLE!” and so it goes around and around until my self esteem is left shattered and splintered like an old wooden fence in a storm.

After the dust had settled and I looked at the piles of work on my desk which were going untouched, I wondered if procrastination and weight loss struggles could somehow be related. I Googled “weight loss for procrastinators” and what I found surprised me. There were several articles about this very subject and after going through six or seven of them, I discovered that they all had a few pieces of advice in common, and I thought I would share them with you. I’m also linking the 3 articles that I thought were most informative and helpful.

  1. Have appropriate goals. This article had a sentence that sort of smacked me in the face: “Consider the goals you have for this diet. Perhaps you do not even realize some of the ways in which these goals are more like hopes, dreams and fantasies.” Wow. If your goals are something along the lines of “I want to walk on the beach in a skimpy bathing suit while adoring eyes behold my exquisite beauty” – that might be a fantasy and NOT an actionable goal. I have been guilty of this – having pie in the sky goals keeps me from having to deal with the not-so-exciting goals like walking 3 times per week.
  2. Acknowledge and celebrate small successes. “People who are successful, give themselves credit for their successes (big as well as small), Procrastinators often do the opposite and continually put themselves down. To be successful we have to learn to accept that if we have 6 out of 7 good days, it was a good week and be happy with these results. Remember-“Success Breeds Success”. I would even argue that 4 out of 7 days is successful and to build up to 6 out of 7 days. Give yourself credit for every single success, no matter how small (this is one that I need to take to heart).
  3. Break the task into smaller, easily attainable tasks. Use the Ten Minute Rule (telling yourself you only have to spend ten minutes on the treadmill, for example) or break the task down into teeny tiny baby steps (Put on your walking shoes, then fill up your water bottle, then take ten steps out your front door, etc) can help you at least get started on the task at hand and most importantly, give you a feeling of success when you actually accomplish them.

After reading several articles, it occurred to me that, oh yeah, I have a book about procrastination that’s been sitting on my kitchen table for 3 weeks that I need to review. The irony is not lost on me that I procrastinated reading a book about overcoming procrastination. :/ I’m happy to report that since then, I have read half of the book and already have half of my review written! Yay me! I’m awesome! (See tip #2 above) So look for that in the near future. In fact, I think I’m going to dedicate the month of August to the topic of procrastination – discussing the book and putting its advice into practice. I’ll share here on the blog how I’m coming along with that and I’ll try to check in at least weekly with my progress.

Do you think you are a procrastinator and if so, do you think it plays in to your weight loss struggles? Have you found ways to overcome procrastination? Share in the comments below!

Upside Down & Inside Out

Wow! I had no idea my “note to self” would resonate so much with you guys!

I’ve been doing a lot of questioning lately. Questioning the things I do daily and why I do them and rethinking some old thought processes…I’m really just trying to see things in a new light. One of the things I’m turning upside down in my own brain is this: What if working out and eating to my body’s needs really isn’t hard? What if the diet industry just wants me to think it’s hard? What if I finally decide to say “I’ve got this goal I want to achieve, and I’m going to believe that it’s going to be a fun process to reach that goal?” What if I just change how I think about this process instead of dreading every step of it?

Not too long ago, my 14 year old had an assignment in chemistry where she had to balance several chemical equations. Now, it’s been over 25 years since I last had to balance a chemical equation so I had no idea how to do it and I wasn’t about to sit down and try to figure it out because CHEMISTRY IS HARD (sound familiar?). Unfortunately, my daughter had no idea how to do it either and as I could see her frustration growing, I decided I needed to help her get through this. So I looked on Youtube for a tutorial on balancing chemical equations and slowly I figured it out. Once I got the hang of it, it actually become sort of…dare I say it?…fun. It was fun figuring out the problem and after I checked my answer to make sure it was right (because I’m a parent and I can do that), it was a great feeling to know that I had indeed figured it out! I am no longer afraid of balancing chemical equations – because I am a badass and I rock that sh*t. I was able to help my daughter figure it out and in the end we both learned something new. What if…what if…it is the same with figuring out my emotional eating issues??? What if it becomes fun to take that pause before I eat and say “Okay, are you hungry? and if you aren’t hungry, what is it that you really need?” Maybe I am a chemical equation just begging to be balanced! 🙂

I am in the process of completely turning my weight loss process upside down and inside out. I’m reading a lot of emotional eating resources and listening to podcasts and trying on some new ideas about taking care of myself and really learning what is best for me, as decided by ME, not by an outside source. I am a reasonably intelligent, highly intuitive 43 year old woman – I know what I need to do and I’m finally doing it. For myself, it all has to come from inside – it has to be intrinsically motivated or else I will rebel against it and stamp my foot and say “you can’t make me!” (because, mature).

I have ended my time with Selvera, but I still very much recommend them for personal coaching and awesome hand-holding. I learned so, so much from my coach Amanda but I think it’s time I take off the training wheels and do what I instinctively know that I need to do, and that is figure out my brain and it’s habits and it’s misguided beliefs once and for all.

I don’t believe that I am a binge eater – I think I used to be, a long time ago, but I’m pretty sure that I’m just a garden-variety emotional eater now. I have confidence that I can figure this out, slowly but surely, and that some day in the not-so-distant future I’ll be on the other side of this issue. I know I can get to the other side. I just know it.

Random bits

Howdy!

Still feeling a bit tired today, but better than I have felt the last 4 days. I had gotten out of the habit of taking my iron supplement over the last two months, so I started that again a few days ago. I know it takes a couple of weeks for the iron to start doing its thing, but hopefully I’ll start having more energy soon. I don’t really think that has anything to do with why I was so tired over the weekend, but it can’t hurt to put that habit into practice again.

I found my Fitbit!! Just as I suspected, it was in the couch. I think I remember taking it off the charger, then lying down on the couch for a nap and that must have been when it fell in between the cushions. Reunited, and it feels so good. I also read about a hack for the Fitbit sleep wristband thingie (technical term) for the Fitbit One (which is what I have). My sleep wristband got messed up sometime a couple of years ago – I think it got torn if I remember correctly, so I hadn’t been using the sleep function of the Fitbit, but one day when I was perusing the online forum on Fitbit’s website I read about how you can get a cheap terry cloth wristband (the kind tennis players wear), snip a small hole in the center and wiggle your Fitbit into the wristband. Then you just slip on the wristband and go to sleep. I tried this last night and it worked great! It was comfy, it didn’t move around, and it still recorded my sleeping/restless times throughout the night. I love a good life hack!

On my way home from work every evening, I pass by a liquor store, and as I drove by last night it occurred to me that I would like for my attitude toward sweets to be the same as my attitude toward alcohol: nice to have occasionally, but not something I want, or even think about, every day. I’m not a big drinker. I might have a glass of wine once a month on a weekend, or when we go to a Mexican restaurant my husband and I like to have a margarita…but most days I don’t even want alcohol. I don’t even think about wanting alcohol. Alcohol is something that to me is a fun treat once in a great while. I am curious as to why I can’t think the same way about sweets…I  mean, after all, they’re both sugar, right? (Doesn’t alcohol turn to sugar in the body? Am I right in thinking this?) Anyway, I would really love to cultivate that take-it-or-leave-it attitude that I have toward alcohol and apply it to sweets. I just really have no idea how to get from Point A to Point B with that one. :/

I think one of my goals for this year is to fall in love with vegetables. I like vegetables. They’re nice to look at and they’re so beneficial…but do I ❤ ❤ ❤LOVE  them? Not so much. I do really enjoy roasted vegetables, but roasting them takes a little time and I typically forget to do that when I’m cooking dinner at night. I really like all the vegetable tian recipes I’ve been seeing on blogs and Pinterest lately…so maybe I just need to make up a big batch of that on the weekend and eat off of that for a few days. Maybe that will be a good first step. Maybe falling in love with vegetables is a bridge to lessening my desire for sweets? Hmmm…  Yes, I think my pursuit of veggies will be a good thing to focus on because really, could there be a bad outcome?? Hard to think of one.

Time to wrap this up because unfortunately, I don’t get paid to blog at work and there is actual work-work to be done today.

Later!

Gettin’ a little woo woo up in here

Warning: I’ma get a little deep for a minute or two, so if you aren’t the touch-feely type, click away! Won’t hurt my feelings if you don’t want to hear me talk about my feelings. 🙂

While searching for emotional eating resources, I stumbled upon the Inside Out Weight Loss podcast. Does everyone know about this and I’m just way late to the party?? I started listening to the podcast from the beginning ( I think it started way back in 2008 so I have a lot to catch up on!) and the latest podcast (that I listened to anyway) was about accepting ourselves as-is and why we might object to that. One of the questions posed was something along the lines of “What is the positive intent of objecting to accepting yourself as you are right now?” In laymen terms, why are you so freaking hard on yourself about accepting yourself???

I have had this question directed at me several times when talking with others about my weight loss. I’ve often heard the following from friends and coaches when I recount my perceived faults:

  • Don’t be so hard on yourself
  • You are being too hard on yourself
  • Give yourself some credit
  • Cut yourself some slack

It never really occurred to me that I was being hard on myself, until I heard this from several different people in different times of my life (but lately and especially about weight loss). Now, let me clarify here that I am NOT a Type A personality at all. I am as far from being an overachiever as a bowling ball is from being an apple. I am the Queen of Good Enough and it suits me just fine. So I needed to stop and think…am I too hard on myself when it comes to my weight loss? And if so, why?

The question asked in the podcast intrigued me enough that I spent a few minutes really thinking about it and this is what I came up with (I actually wrote this down in a notebook):

I know that good things can happen if I put forth a lot of effort. When I make a REAL, CONCENTRATED effort, great things happen for me. If things aren’t happening for me, then I must not be making enough of an effort, therefore I feel like I need to expect more of myself. Since I am still very overweight, I must not be putting forth enough effort, so only when I’m losing weight do I feel that I am meeting my own expectations. I think that in my mind being overweight = not trying hard enough. And I just can’t accept myself the way that I am because I haven’t put in the work…I don’t deserve to feel okay with the body I have now.

Of course, this was not really a conscious thought I had, but the more deeply I dug, this is what came up and it makes sense to me in a way. And so now I’m thinking…well, is this just a limiting belief I have about myself? Just because I’m thinking all of this, does that make it true (what’s that quote about “don’t always believe the things you think”?) What if I could be okay with my body without putting in any effort at all? Is that even possible? I don’t know.

I don’t like it that I put conditions on myself to be acceptable: ONLY when I’m thin will I be okay; ONLY when I’ve worked super duper hard, will I be worthy; ONLY will I be acceptable to myself and everyone around me when I lose this excess weight. Maybe it’s these very conditions that have been holding me back. Maybe carrying around these conditions is the reason I feel that losing weight is like running through mud.

Maybe if I could figure out how to get rid of these prerequisites to acceptance, my weight loss would pick up pace?

Maybe…

I don’t have any answers yet. I’m thinking through this as I type, but if I figure it out, I’ll let ya know.

Now let’s all join hands and sing Kumbaya, okay? 😉

Mini goal met!

If you look over on the right sidebar you’ll see a section titled Weight Loss Goals. See that mini goal? It says 185. I have had this goal for several years now. When I first put it up there in probably 2010 or early 2011, I was only a few pounds away from that weight (hence the “mini”) and thought it would be no big deal to get there. And then all hell broke lose and my weight climbed up the scale just to spite me and laugh in my face at my “easily attainable goal”. I met that goal again briefly in August of 2012 – nearly 2 1/2 years ago – for a hot minute, then came the slow steady climb back up again.

Since then I’ve spent most of my time hovering in the high 190s. Not a lovely place to be for someone who’s only 5’3 1/2″ tall.

But after lots of coaching from Amanda and shaking my booty in Zumba, guess who hit that goal again today?!?

THIS GIRL!!

Mini goal complete!
Mini goal complete!

Look at how gently my weight loss line slopes. Like a rolling hill in a meadow. No cliff-hanging drop-offs here!!

So yeah, I’m a happy camper. My highest weight was on December 27, 2013 when I weighed in at 198.9. That’s the closest to 200 pounds I’ve ever been (pregnancy INCLUDED). Since then, I’ve lost 13.6 pounds, which isn’t fast and fancy, but heck, I don’t care. I’m just thrilled to be making progress even if it is at a turtle’s pace, because after all, Slow and Steady wins the race, amiright?! 🙂

Habits habits everywhere

I had a mystery on my hands the last few days: ever since Thanksgiving, I could not stop eating and I had no idea why. I mean, sure there were delicious leftovers, but once those were gone I still had the incredible urge to EAT ALL THE THINGS EVERYWHERE and it was really bugging me. My brain felt different, I was sliding back into behaviors that only days ago weren’t a big problem, and I just really wanted all the sugar and all the carbs the world had to offer and I wanted them in my face NOW.

And then this morning, something shifted. As I was eating my oatmeal, I actually said to myself “I feel better now…I feel like I’ve turned a corner and feel like eating well again…I wonder what that’s all about?” and then not ten minutes later, I’m not even kidding you, I felt that old familiar stab in my lower abdomen and then the light bulb went on over my head. “Oh…it’s THAT time of the month! No wonder I’ve felt like I couldn’t get enough food!!” I had totally forgotten that it was time for my cycle to begin – I just thought that I was seriously backsliding away from all the good habits I’ve cultivated throughout the last year. I can’t tell you what a relief it is to know I’m back in my right mind now. 🙂

Then a friend of mine posted this article on FB and I thought it was a timely read. I do feel like my ultimate success will come down to whether or not I can let go of old habits and embrace new ones. I’m also working on some emotional eating concepts, but I believe that those things are tied in with habits as well. The subject of habits is really interesting to me – it just clicks with me regarding my weight loss (or lack thereof). I have to cultivate the habits that will lead to weight loss – I think I always sort of believed that once I lost weight it would be easier to have healthy habits, which when I type that out makes no sense whatsoever, but sometimes the brain just believes what it believes. As I said in my last post, sometimes my brain is a weird and confusing place.

One thing I know is key when changing habits is having patience. Losing weight at approximately one pound per month over the last 11 months has taught me loads about patience! Only in the last couple of months have I learned to be okay with the fact that it might take me 2 or 3 years to reach my goal weight – of course I wish it would go faster, and if I continue to work on changing some more habits, it probably will, but for now I realize that if I keep doing what I’m doing, I WILL lose weight, but it will be slow. And I’m okay with that.

Here’s a list of some of the habits I’ve adopted that seem to be coming pretty easy to me lately:

  • Having dinner early in the evening. I like getting dinner over and done with before 6:30 so I can have the rest of the evening to digest.
  • Going to Zumba twice a week. Zumba for me is less about working out and more about doing something I enjoy. I’ve found a class where the instructor and other participants are welcoming and a lot of fun. It’s a small class and I really enjoy it. Around here, I could find a Zumba class for every day of the week, but I think I’d get burned out if I went more than 2 or 3 times a week. So for now, twice a week is perfect.
  • My weekly calls with Amanda from Selvera. Knowing I’ll be talking with her keeps me accountable, even when I want to eat all the food in the world. I have no doubt that I’d be well over 200 pounds if I wasn’t working with her.
  •  Getting up 15 – 30 minutes earlier in the mornings. I got so tired of rushing around every morning trying to get myself and my family out the door for school and work that I decided to get up a few minutes earlier to give myself some breathing room. It just makes my day go so much more smoothly when I have time to actually drink my coffee instead of letting getting lukewarm on the kitchen counter. I’m really pleased with myself for developing this habit.
  • Getting plenty of sleep. I’ve been getting at least 7 hours of sleep at night and  I LOVE IT SO SO MUCH.
  • Blogging more often. It really does help when I come here and unload or share thoughts or just ramble incoherently for a little while. It’s such a release. 🙂

Some of things I’d like to work on cultivating in the next year are:

  • Daily workouts. I would really like to find something that I enjoy as much as Zumba for the days when I don’t go to Zumba. Right now I can’t think of anything that I would like to do for an hour that would also work up a sweat. The thought of getting on the treadmill in my cold dark garage is about as appealing as a root canal and I don’t want to mess up my sleeping mojo by having to get up at 4:30 am to do an hour long DVD. I’m beginning to think that I might be a social exerciser, meaning that group classes might be the way to go, but I still don’t know what I would like to do.
  • Eliminate grazing after work. This is my Achilles Heel. For as long as I can remember, as soon as I came home from school (or later on in my life, work) I would head to the kitchen and grab a snack or six. Eating was a way to unwind or celebrate being home. I could easily polish off 1,000 calories and then STILL eat dinner two hours later. This habit wasn’t a problem for me for a long time because I was so active throughout the day, but when I got this desk job and became sedentary…it caught up to me in a big way (pun fully intended). I am working on this habit now and have come a long way with it, but I still need to keep working on it.
  • Eliminate emotional eating behaviors. I eat mostly in response to emotional cues. Bored? Let’s eat. Sad? Let’s eat. Happy? Let’s eat. If there’s an emotion, there’s an appropriate food to match. This is another deeply ingrained habit that I learned at a young age, so it’s going to take some time and effort to replace it.
  • Finding things that I enjoy doing. If you asked me what my interests are, I would say Zumba and reading, and that’s about it. I don’t really have a hobby that I get excited about. I like getting together with friends, but sometimes it’s hard to coordinate schedules. Maybe I should find a book club? I don’t know, but this is one of those things I need to actively work on in the next year because enjoying my life will ultimately lead to my leaning less on food for entertainment.

So there you have it…I’m working on shifting some beliefs and actions so that I can live a healthier, happier life. Do you have any habits that you have changed or are in the process of changing? I’d love to hear all about it – you can comment below or you can email me at sassypearblog@gmail.com if you don’t want share them here. 🙂

So what’s the big deal about Sr. Night?

First, in yesterday’s post I asked you guys if I should be a good mom and help my kids with their projects or should I go to Zumba? I finally decided to be a good mom and go to Zumba. 🙂  My son didn’t need help with his poster (he actually wanted to do it himself – believe me I tried to Beverly Goldberg my way into helping him, but he wasn’t having it) and we decided to work on the younger’s project over the weekend, so off to Zumba I went where I happily shook what my mama gave me. So thanks for your help on that one – I appreciate it!

Now, I’ve mentioned having some anxious thoughts about tonight’s Senior Night for my son (and the other high school seniors on the football team and in Band) and some of it is because we are all publicly acknowledging that our teeny babies are indeed, almost adults (pause for maternal crying and gnashing of teeth). But something else is lurking underneath these anxious feelings and I’ll tell you what it is:

About 4 years ago, my freshman son was playing in the band and they did Senior Night for that year’s seniors. As I watched all the parents escort their kids across the gym (for some reason the band did their Sr. Night during basketball season then), and knowing that everyone in the stands were watching them, it occurred to me that someday I would have to walk across that gym with my senior as well. It was then that I realized I needed to get serious about this weight-loss thing. I remember thinking to myself “you have 4 years to get this excess weight off if you don’t want to be embarrassed walking across that gym”. It sounded easy enough: lose ten pounds each year and I’d be at goal! Easy peasy, right?! Apparently, not so easy.

Wanna hear something crazy?? I am almost exactly the same weight today as I was 4 years ago (186.8 today vs.185.0 in November four years ago). I’m sure that means something, but I’m not sure what.

Instead of losing weight, I went up, up, up the scale to as close to 200 pounds as I could get before beginning the slow climb back down this year.

So to see this night finally arrive knowing that I didn’t achieve that goal I set for myself 4 years ago is…well…sort of disappointing. :/

Don’t get me wrong, I am super proud of working so hard for the last 10 months and losing the 12 pounds that I have lost so far and I am making so much progress on my habits and my thought processes. I fully realize that I could very well weigh a whole lot more right now if I hadn’t done all that work. So, I get that. But knowing this marker has come and gone…it’s just sort of something I have to work through.

I’m actually not worried about how I will look tonight. Tonight is not about me. It’s about celebrating my son. And really, so what if I didn’t reach my goal? It’s not like this is the first time I’ve never met a goal! LOL! See? I’m working through it already. 🙂

So tonight my husband and I will escort our son across the field, during which I will say something funny to my son and we will both crack up under nervous pressure and my husband will look at us like we are crazy (this is very typical). It’s going to be a good night.

I’m Still Standing (You’re welcome for that Elton John earworm)

Hey Howdy Hey!

It’s been a week and my sit-stand workstation and I are still going strong! I love this thing so much, you don’t even know. It really breaks up the monotony of the day and I actually find it easier to do my actual work while standing. Who knew?!

As some of you suggested, I’ve been alternating sitting with standing usually every hour but sometimes even every half hour. I got a cushioned mat to stand on AND I bought the cutest pair of Sketchers with memory foam in them and WOW what a difference that makes!

My boss just can’t understand why I would want something like this. He said “that just does not look comfortable to me at all!!” and then he said “I just don’t want to stand that much”. Hmmm…and why are you over 300 pounds with high blood pressure and high cholesterol and taking heart medication again? Oh yeah, THAT’S WHY. I have a whole ‘nother post about my boss forming in my head but I’ll save that for a later date.

As far as my weight goes, I was helped along in my efforts by an ugly stomach bug that hit me Thursday night. All three of my kids have had it too, only my husband was spared (not sure how he kept from getting it). I’m sitting at an unofficial weight of 189 today and I’m chasing 188 pretty hard. After the bug, I was down to 186 but I knew my weight would go back up once my appetite came back so I wasn’t putting those eggs in my basket just yet. I’m hoping to stay under 190 though and maybe I can hit a true weigh in of 188 officially in a few days.

Why is 188 so special you may ask? Because it marks a ten pound weight loss for me – right after Christmas last year I weighed in at 198 which is my highest weight ever (both in the pregnant and non-pregnant categories). I started working with Selvera right after that and my official Selvera weigh in is 197 (197.7 maybe?). If you had told me then that it would take me a year to lose ten pounds, I would have said “pass the Cheetos because why bother?” but in working with my coach Amanda (my goodness that woman deserves a medal for sticking with me!!!) I have realized that my biggest obstacles are my habits. I know how to eat healthy (most days), I know how to exercise (sorta), but what I didn’t know how to do was break some very deeply ingrained bad habits. Anyone who says it takes 21 days to break a habit is full of…beans (as my grandpa would say)!! So over the last 9-ish months I’ve been working with Amanda to not only making healthier choices, but to break bad habits and integrate new, better ones. I’ve come a long way, baby, but I still have a long way to go. Getting to 188 is one small step in the right direction.

Guess that’s all that’s new around here. Have a great day and if you have any questions about my standing work station or about Selvera or my cute new shoes feel free to ask!! I’m more than happy to answer. 🙂

Sleepy weekend

Hey Tribe! 

Happy Labor Day to my US friends and to those of you not in the US, Happy Monday! I’m blogging from home today on my new lightning-fast home computer. The old one finally gave up the ghost and we bought this beauty a couple of weeks ago. It’s so shiny and new!! I love that new electronic gadget smell. 🙂

The word of the weekend has been SLEEP. I must have been a lot more tired and run down than I realized because pretty much all I’ve done for the last 2 days is sleep and nap and cat-nap and sleep some more. Today I woke up bright eyed and bushy tailed – something I have not done in quite some time. At first I felt guilty for all the sleeping, because I had so many things I wanted to get done this weekend but then I realized that my body must have needed the rest and I should probably listen to my body and just deal with it. I’m thankful for this long weekend with nothing planned in which I could grant my body its deepest wish! Sometimes you just have to let go and listen to what your body is telling you. 

Food this weekend has been about 50/50. I’ve eaten things that were off plan, and I’ve eaten things that were right in line with my plan…I’m tired of looking at food as good or bad…it’s just food. So the things I’ve eaten that weren’t on my plan…well…I acknowledged it, I owned it, and I moved on (after realizing how cruddy those foods make me feel). I’m back in the game today and happy to be there. 

Which reminds me, I totally forgot to do a Selvera Week 3 check in! It’s still going well actually! I got down to 190.5 a few days ago and haven’t been back on the scale since then (I’m certain I’m up a couple of pounds due this weekend’s over-indulgences and lack of activity). I’m expecting a new box of goodies tomorrow and I’ll wrap up week 4 in a couple of days. 

This long weekend is going to be the last activity-free weekend I have for awhile. This week is already filled with kids’ activities and it will continue on until probably late October. I’m just so freaking happy that my youngest isn’t doing cheer again this year – letting go of that activity has been the best decision we’ve made. It was just way more stressful and drama-filled than a grade school cheerleading squad should be (yep that’s right, it was ELEMENTARY SCHOOL. And so ridiculously rigid in their rules – it wasn’t fun for anyone). I’m actually looking forward to this fall’s activities and cooler weather (assuming it ever gets here). 

Well, the dryer just buzzed at me so I should probably go attend to it. I hope you all have a lovely day off and if you are working today, hang in there! 🙂