The Sassy Pear

Finding my way through my forties

WGOL — February 4, 2010


So, I had yet ANOTHER crazy binge last night (that make the third one this week) and it took me awhile to realize that I am PMSing. After much thought and internet searching, I decided to start tracking my PMS symptoms, but then I realized that what I really wanted was to track my emotional eating. Cause y’all, when I have an emotion, I eat. A lot. And sometimes I don’t even realize what’s going on until it’s too late (like last night when I had 3 bowls of tortilla soup. THREE bowls. Yeah it was good and yeah I was hungry, but come on! Three? Crazy.), so I used my very limited mad spreadsheet skillz to make a logsheet where I could track what was happening on a day to day basis.  I didn’t want to make it to complicated, but there are a few key things that needed to be included for me to get a good idea of what’s going on. Oh, that’s the title of my spreadsheet: the What’s Going On Log (WGOL). So anyway, here’s what I have included on my WGOL (pronounced woggle):

  • Where I am in my cycle
  • how many hours I slept last night
  • how much exercise I did
  • how much water
  • any digestive issues (you all know how important this is to me!)
  • and finally, what’s going on with 1) my marriage, 2) my kids, 3) work, and 4) anything else.


If I can remember to fill this out every day I think it will really help me figure out WHY I am overeating and eventually HOW I can head off those binges before they start.  I’d like to get a few month’s worth of data and then see if there are any trends.  I think this will be an interesting experiment.  Is there anything that maybe I should add to this? I want to keep it simple, but I don’t want to leave off anything that might be helpful.

Have a great day!  🙂

Somebody stop me — April 1, 2009

Somebody stop me

Next time I start out saying, “I’ve been doing really well with xyz…” somebody stop me, because that is a surefire way of xyz coming to a screeching halt. Remember how I said exercise has been consistent? Well apparently Consistent Week ended on Saturday because I have not done one minute of any kind of workout whatsoever. Sunday I was just plain lazy, Monday I had good intentions but never got around to it, and yesterday I bought groceries after work and by the time I got home, unloaded and put away the groceries, cooked dinner, I had missed my window of workout opportunity. Tonight is church, so no work out tonight either. I am going to have to really jam Thursday through Saturday.

On the upside though, I did not buy any junk food at the store yesterday. I bought lots of fruits and veggies and stuff for dinners, but no sweets. Usually I’ll buy junk because the hubs and kids complain if there isn’t anything to “snack” on, but I figure if they want a snack, they can eat fruit or air popped popcorn or something like that. In other words, they’re just going to have to deal with it, and so am I. I was fine until after dinner (tacos, yum) when suddenly I needed a little “something”. I always want a little “something” after dinner and usually that something is something sweet. That’s when I regretted not buying any sweets at the grocery store, so I scrounged around and found the last two striped shortbread cookies that I had bought about a week ago. I ate them quickly and then cursed myself for doing it. It’s a habit that is going to be hard to kill, but maybe I can put it in a coma for awhile.

I have a running question: how do you deal with the wind? It has been super windy here the last few weeks and when it’s windy like this, I don’t want to run. But living in Oklahoma (where the WIND comes sweeping down the plain), this is something I’m going to have to learn to deal with if I want to be a runner.

Oh! I had an Aha moment yesterday: I need to do something about my PMS.

(Insert crickets chirping here)

What? You’re not shocked that I made this realization?

I know what you are thinking, “Well duh Jill! You only complain about it every month!” But really, it has gone from being mildly annoying to causing actual conflict in my life. When I am PMSing, it usually comes in the form of burning, seething, rage. My whole body feels like a clenched fist and suddenly everyone is an effing moron and if someone looks at me funny, they should be prepared to face my wrath. I snap at the kids for no reason and the hubs and I have had terrible fights the last three months during that time. My job and everything about it gets on my nerves – so much so that I consider walking out. It’s becoming a problem and I need to do something about it.

This article from WebMD is a good place to start I think. A short internet search of several articles led me to the same conclusion: exercise and diet can help alleviate a lot of PMS symptoms. The WebMd article says to eliminate my four favorite things: caffeine, alcohol, chocolate, and salt. I’m not a big drinker, but PMS time seems to be the perfect time for a glass of wine! And we all know how much of the other stuff I consume: a lot. But I can’t keep continuing to turn into a Nazi every month or else I may find myself divorced and unemployed, so I’m going to give this a shot. The article also says to take calcium and vitamin B6 supplements, so I may give that a try too. I need to take calcium anyway, but adding the B6 is something I hadn’t thought about. Guess I’ll be making a trip to Walgreen’s this afternoon.

Hmmmm…just had a thought: the worse my eating has gotten over the last 3 months, the more weight I have gained and the worse my PMS has gotten. Coincidence? Something tells me, no.

ETA:  I think I need to clarify my running question.  When I say “wind”, I actually mean wind, not gas.  Somebody first thought I was asking about passing gas while running. Um, no. That’s not what I meant.  I mean do you still run when the wind is blowing 20 mph or do you just scrap your run for the day?

Me? Cranky? Why would I be cranky? — February 5, 2009

Me? Cranky? Why would I be cranky?

Ever have those days when putting on makeup feels like the biggest chore in the world?

Ever have those days when you make a decision that you KNOW is wrong, but it feels so right?

Ever have those days when throwing your alarm clock across the room becomes a very real possibility?

Ever have those days when you WANT your “monthly visit” to hurry up and get here already?

Not that I’m having one of those days or anything…

 (photo courtesy of Google Images)


Here’s what else is on my mind today:

When I’m on target with my eating, I have a hard time working out. But when I’m working out consistently and well, my eating goes down the drain – I want the sugary, carby stuff and lots of it. I’ve noticed this pattern for a long time now and the only time I could get the two to balance – I lost 25 pounds (that was last summer), but I was also taking an app suppressant, so I assume that had something to do with it. Am I going to have to do that again in order to lose these last 15 pounds???? Does anyone else notice this in their own lives and have you been able to balance the seesaw that is eating right/exercising? Please delurk to share with me your wisdom and I promise I won’t throw anything at you.

Chocolate makes you smart and sexy!! — September 18, 2008

Chocolate makes you smart and sexy!!

If you don’t believe me, you can just ask Merry at Cranky Fitness.  Who am I to argue with such sound statistics???

I didn’t realize I hadn’t posted since Monday.  My mood is lighter today and thankfully I didn’t have to shoot anyone to get it that way.  I think part of the reason I feel better is that I’m taking a vacation day tomorrow, so Thursday is the new Friday (at least for this week).  Tonight is high school football game and tomorrow is an outing with the kiddos (they’re out for parent/teacher conferences tomorrow).  So my weekend essentially starts today at 3:30 – woohoo for 3 day weekends!!

I’ve been walking every morning and guzzling water and staying on track food-wise, so I hope the scale gods will be kind to me tomorrow when I go weigh in.  I have been stuck at 157 for the last 4 weeks and I’m ready to see 155.  That will put me 10 pounds away from my goal weight.  I have played around with the idea of getting down to 135, but really I may just be done once I get to 145, because, ugh – thinking about losing another 20 pounds wears me out.  However the always anxiety-producing 20 year high school reunion is next summer and although I’d like to think I’m above all that, honestly I’d like to be smokin hot when I go, so I may have to keep on keepin on in losing-weight-mode.  Yeah, vanity and ego and fear are big motivators for me!

I think once I hit goal, I’ll start strength training, just to have something new and different to add to Maintenance.  I know, I know, if I start working out with weights now I’ll lose the weight faster, but I’m just not feeling it yet.  I need something to look forward to, kinda like Phase 2 of Rebuilding Jill (Phase 1 being the weight loss). 

Hmmm, that gives me an idea – new tagline, anyone?

Somebody better get me a midol and a margarita or there’s gonna be trouble… — September 12, 2008

Somebody better get me a midol and a margarita or there’s gonna be trouble…

I am really annoyed with work today, but I am not going to blog any details.  Just know that I am really really really annoyed. 

I could be a grown up and just deal with the situation, but what I really feel like doing is stomping my foot, folding my arms, and holding my breath until I turn blue until I get my own way.  Yeah, I feel like being a big baby about the whole thing, so what? 

And the thing that is annoying me so badly?  A very small insignificant petty thing, but I am really annoyed. Not even mad, just roll-the-eyes-because-it’s-totally-what-I-knew-would-happen frustrated. 

Did I mention that I am also PMSing like a mofo????




ETA :  I got my way-ay, I got my way-ay!!  You can not ignore the power of the pms vibe!!!  (insert evil laugh here) hahahahahahaha!!!!!!!

You know you’re PMSing when… — July 24, 2008

You know you’re PMSing when…

  • The warm fuzziness of your daughter’s Barbie Fairytopia movie makes you cry
  • one minute you love your husband so much that it takes your breath away, and the next minute he’s an insensitive jackass who should know EXACTLY why he made you madder than a wet hen and don’t tell me not to get upset! You’re the reason I’m upset so you should do something to make me feel better you insensitive jackass!!!
  • spilling your coffee makes you cry
  • the ice cream in the freezer that you have managed to avoid for the last 3 weeks is suddenly the most precious thing on earth to you and you must have it NOW.
  • a fudgesicle, a brownie, and 3 handfuls of chocolate chips are not enough chocolate to tame the savage beast within.
  • you start to wonder if pouring syrup on unsweetened baking chocolate would do the trick.
  •  a sink full of dirty dishes makes you cry
  • your skinny jeans that you slaved and sweated to fit into can not be zipped without your being horizontal
  • flat lifeless hair makes you cry
  • crying makes you cry and you don’t even know why you started crying in the first place you just know that you can’t stop and really you don’t want to stop because it does make you feel a little bit better but now your makeup is running and so now you have do your make up ALL over again and the thought of having to do that just makes you cry more
  • suddenly every moron with a driver’s license is in front of you and apparently THEY DON’T REALIZE THAT YES, YOU CAN TURN RIGHT ON RED AFTER YOU STOP.  MOVE IT YOU IDIOT!!!!
  • the most beautiful word in the English language is Midol
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