The Sassy Pear

Finding my way through my forties

You win some, you lose some Part 2 — June 8, 2009

You win some, you lose some Part 2

I was delighted to see a friend request on my Facebook page…  🙂

Until I found out that friend was my MIL  😦

 

Finally found tomato cages at Lowe’s…   🙂

But they only had 7, I need 8.   😦

 

Loved hearing a gentle rain shower outside my window this morning…   🙂

Until I realized it’s Monday and had to get up.   😦

 

I found a $10 off coupon from a local dept store in my purse…   🙂

That expired yesterday.   😦

 

Okay, so I’ve got the Monday blues and I got em bad. Why can’t weekends be 3 days instead of 2? I always wish I had just one more day…

I’ve had so much I wanted to blog about, but I just haven’t had the time to sit down and do it. Work has been so busy, but then after sitting in front of a computer for 8 hours a day the last thing I want to do is sit in front of one at home, so blogging has been on the back burner for awhile.

Well, I’m back on my doctor’s weight loss program. I went off the program in December and by March had gained 10 pounds. I thought, “It’s only 10 pounds, surely I can lose 10 pounds on my own!” I was going to give myself until October to lose it, but instead of losing, I have gained. So I decided that it was stupid to fight a losing battle. I know this program works for me; it’s affordable, so why wait? I called the Nurse Nazi on Thursday and she was so sweet when asked her if I could come back. “Well of course you can, honey – you can come back anytime!” So I went back and weighed in at 170! Yikes! But I will say that I had a very heavy lunch that day and was wearing my heaviest, bulkiest jeans that day, not mention that it was 4 in the afternoon (excuses excuses), so I don’t think my actual first-thing-in-the-morning weight is that high, but still. That’s a decade I never wanted to see again. Nurse Nazi was so encouraging, “Don’t you worry about that number honey, it won’t be around for long!” God bless her!

I just gotta say, I love this program. For once, I’m not bombarded constantly with thoughts of food and fat and losing weight. My head feels uncluttered and I feel like a weight has been lifted from my shoulders, knowing I’m doing something that I have been successful with before. And when I’m taking the pills, I automatically eat better. I snacked on fruit and walnuts all weekend instead of cookies and ice cream. I eat small enough portions that I don’t feel sluggish after I eat. I wait long enough between meals that I get a little hungry and so the food I eat tastes a hundred times better. I don’t know if it’s the pills themselves or the whole package – the pills, the daily exercise, the weekly weigh in, the accountability, but whatever it is, it works FOR ME

I also told Nurse Nazi to NOT let me quit halfway through this time. I want to go all the way with it this time – she said if I would stick with it, they would teach me some things about maintenance so that I wouldn’t regain the weight, so that’s encouraging too.

I’m really ready to start a new chapter in my life, weight loss being just one small part of that. I’m ready to do something a little more challenging with my knitting (you can only make so many coasters!), and I am thinking of organizing a walking group one night a week so I can reconnect with some old friends while doing something healthy. I think I’m finally ready to make an effort to change my life instead of waiting for someone else to change it for me. I think I finally understand that change IS possible and I have what it takes to bring about that change – I just wish it hadn’t taken me this long to realize it.

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