Forty Four and Lesson Learned

I have to admit, I am one of those who loves to celebrate my own birthday. For so many years, I wanted others to make me feel celebrated and special, but then a few years ago I decided to take matters into my own hands and make MYSELF feel celebrated and special. Leaving that up to others was unkind of me…who wants that kind of pressure? Every year for the past, I don’t know…5 years?, I’ve been making my birthday into something that will leave me fulfilled and happy. One year, I got a massage for myself, another year I bought myself a Kindle, once it was a mani/pedi. Yesterday I decided to take the afternoon off work (I usually try to take the whole day off, but I had some things at work that needed to be done in the morning) and treat myself to a lovely afternoon with myself. 🙂

I took myself to lunch at a sweet little tea room that is decorated in various shades of pink – it is a very girly place and it was perfect for a quiet lunch. I don’t mind eating alone…I know some people have a problem with it, but for me, it’s kind of nice sometimes to just sit and watch the other diners or to just spend some time reading on my Kindle while I eat. After lunch, I took myself shopping and bought a few new Spring-y pieces to add to my wardrobe. Every place I went, I ended up getting some kind of discount, either because it was a promotion offered by the store or because the sales clerk wanted to add my birth month to their list for future coupons (when I told the girl that it was my birthday, she went ahead and gave me the coupon anyway), so I scored some great deals all for less than $100 total, which made the day even sweeter!

After buying two tops, a pair of pants, and two pair of super cute wedges, I went home to celebrate with my family. My husband cooked dinner for all of us (I love a man who cooks!) and the kids gave me their cards and presents and then we had cake and ice cream. Honestly, I felt so fulfilled already that I wasn’t even phased by the cake. I had one small piece with a small scoop of ice cream and after that, I didn’t want more. I was done with it and I didn’t go back for seconds.

At one point early in the evening, the kiddos had scattered to their rooms or to go play outside while dinner was cooking, and the hubs and I were talking about ordinary stuff when a special-to-us song came on (we were listening to a virtual mixtape I had made for him – you should try this, it’s so cool!!) and he pulled me in for a slow dance right there in the living room. I just remember feeling so happy – just pure happiness right at that moment, I almost wanted to cry. It was the sweetest gift I could have gotten.

At the end of the evening, I remember thinking “this is what having a full life feels like”…I don’t have a big fancy house, but I have a home with people I love; I don’t have loads of money in the bank, but I have enough to meet our needs plus a little bit extra; I don’t have tons of friends, but I have a few loyal pals that would kill or die for me (and I for them). And my family (immediate and extended)…gosh I don’t know how I would do this life without them.

The point of all this gushiness is that food was barely even on my radar yesterday. I had my special lunch and then I didn’t even think about food for the next 6 hours at all. Let me repeat that…I DIDN’T EVEN THINK ABOUT FOOD FOR THE NEXT 6 HOURS. AT ALL. Once I realized that, it dawned on me that “Oh! THIS is how I get to the other side of this food issue…I fill my days with things other than food that are just as satisfying!” Now, although I would love to go on a shopping spree every day of my life, my finances just won’t allow that, but I can totally do other things – I just have to remind myself to do them. I want to carry this feeling with me all the time, even in the midst of running kids around and folding laundry and cooking meals and cleaning house…if I could remember to carry this feeling with me all day every day, I’d solve my food issues for good.

A new challenge

Hey gang!  Did you all have a good weekend?  Yesterday was gorgeous day here – we loaded up and headed to our local farm supply and bought seeds for this year’s garden. We are expanding the garden area-wise, and planting more and different veggies this year. I think we bought nearly $40 worth of seeds, and that was 40% off!  We are some garden-planning maniacs! 

I’m frustrated. I’m not losing weight like I thought I would. I’ve lost 4 pounds, and gained 2, and lost 1, and gained 3, and lost 1. *sigh* I’ve been doing this back and forth dance for 2 months and I’m tired of it.  I really thought my sugar-free experiment would yield some results, but alas, I sit here the same weight I was when I started it. Of course I planned that little foray right smack dab in the middle of my Lady Time and all her accompanying symptoms, not to say that the experiment was a failure – my PMS symptoms were noticeably lessened and I felt good while I was doing it, so I’m going to modify my No Sweets policy a little bit, but I’m going to stick with it for awhile longer.  (Was that like, the longest sentence EVER?) 

In hopes of getting below 155 pounds, I’m going to begin a new challenge. For the next 10 days I’m going to exercise for at least 20 minutes per day. Somehow I am going to force myself to fit it in – I think this will be the key to busting out of the upper 150’s.  So, that’s the goal for the next 10 days – Get. It. Done. I might buy a couple of new DVD’s, because there are days when I just don’t want to get on the elliptical, and plus I think it’s good to change things up. I need something to look forward to.

About expanding the No Sweets Policy, this week is going to be a little hard to work around. My birthday is Wednesday so I might treat myself to a little dark chocolate, or an angel food cake or something like that, and then Saturday is when I will celebrate with my parents and my sister and her family. Does anyone else do this? Have a birthday gathering to celebrate, even if you are almost 40? Birthdays are kind of a big deal in my family, we all try to get together and have a lunch or dinner and open presents and have cake and ice cream.  Doesn’t matter the age, if you were born into my family, you will be having a birthday party! It’s still fun.

So anyway, there will be a few sugary foods consumed in the next 6 days. OH! And guess what else I’m doing on Wednesday?  I’m taking the day off of work and treating myself to a massage and a mani/pedi. After my morning at the spa, I’m going to go shopping. I plan on spending the day by myself just doing the things I want to do.  I rarely get time to do these things, so I thought this would be the perfect opportunity. I’m really excited! 

Okay so, my focus this week is exercise and celebrating me! I’ll let you all know how it goes.  What would you do with a day all to yourself?

Busy weekend = no rest for the weary

Hello All six of you who read my blog 

I’m so glad it’s Friday, but I’ve got a busy weekend planned and so much to do, that I am already looking forward to Sunday afternoon when I can chill on the couch and do NOTHING.  My son is turning 13 tomorrow (don’t even get me started – I’m so not ready for the teen years), and he has a basketball game at 8:30 a.m., then my middle daughter has cheer camp tomorrow after which she will be “cheering” at an elementary basketball game that afternoon. My son wants to have a couple of friends spend the night so, I have to make sure I have plenty of boy snacks at home (I’m thinking popcorn and pretzels and …what else? Trying to keep it healthy, but what healthy things do pubescent boys like to eat?)  Also have to fit in time for grandparents to come over and give the boy his bday gifts, plus have to find time to get the kitchen back together enough to allow visitors to see it.  Add to that the usual loveliness of laundry laundry and more laundry and already I’m exhausted. Oh, and did I mention I’m PMSing? A bunch? And I’m super tired? Yeah, it’s great to be me today. Really.

Hello, my name is Jill!

Typing all this out and suddenly I have a craving for something to eat even though I just ate lunch an hour ago.  Coincidence? I think not. I’m going to drink lots and lots of water this afternoon to see if that helps. I know I need to work out tonight, but I have a feeling I’m not going to have enough drive to make myself do it. I really need to clean my house a little bit tonight, so that might have to be my workout.

A couple of things have lead to my tiredness today:  Mallory woke up twice last night – once because she wet the bed (she’s a bedwetter and we had run out of Underjams) and then she had a coughing fit not long after that. When I finally got her settled in, I had a hard time settling down enough to sleep. My mind just wouldn’t turn off, and then when I finally did fall asleep, I had weird, disturbing dreams (tiny babies with shark teeth, boa constrictors everywhere, my sister and I getting into a fight) so today I feel like I have been run over by a mach truck. 

I’m too tired to even finish this post.  Just send me good healthy, energetic vibes my way so I can make it through the weekend without crashing and burning.

Let's hope this isn't me in 48 hours

Have a good weekend!  See ya on Monday.  🙂