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Talking and coffee and words

I had to come to work an hour early this morning because my boss was going to be gone for an appointment and I had to open the door for the internal auditor who is here this week. Normally when I come in at 8:00, my boss and I have an understanding that we don’t speak for at least the first 15 minutes because he is not much of a talker anyway and I am not a morning person. He understands that he should not approach me until I’ve had at least one cup of coffee. We have an agreement. It works.

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Well. Apparently Internal Auditor did not get that memo because OMG SO MUCH TALKING. People who initiate conversations at 6:45 a.m. obviously don’t know how to read a room. Dude, I do not care about the weather in Florida. I do not care that your 5’3″ girlfriend gained 8 pounds – apparently she went from 104 pounds to 112 pounds – and you can really see every pound on her (I gave him an earful on how at 112 pounds, she is still on the low end of the BMI scale for her height), and I don’t care that you are supposed to be on a no-carb diet but those donuts at the convenience store were calling your name. If you want me to pretend to care, then at least give me 15 minutes to get some caffeine in my system. I’ve already spoken more words in the last hour and a half than I usually speak all day. Having conversations is hard so early in the morning. I’m exhausted.

In other more caffeinated news, I’ve taken up an obscure little hobby that I’m certain no one knows about yet*: hand-lettering. I started playing around with it on Labor Day weekend and since then I’ve been practicing nearly every day. I really enjoy it because the movements are slow and methodical, and it can become almost meditative in a sense. However, the more I look for resources on the internet (practice sheets, styles, courses, etc.) the more overwhelmed I get because, good gravy, is there anyone NOT doing this? There are so many Instagram accounts and Facebook pages and websites devoted to this that it is very easy to go down the rabbit hole and never resurface again. I finally just had to stop looking and just stick to practicing the alphabet. I’ll work my way up to the fancy stuff later. Maybe someday when I feel like my writing isn’t shaky, and I can figure out spacing, and my lettering doesn’t look it was done by a 3 year old, I’ll post some of it here on my blog. Any of my readers out there have any experience with hand-lettering? Any tips or advice you care to offer a novice?

I think that’s enough words for today – spoken and written. I’m tired.

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*sarcasm. I honestly had no idea that this hand-lettering thing was such a…THING now. It’s crazy how many websites there are devoted to this stuff. 

 

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Things on social media that annoy me right now

I didn’t get a lot of sleep last night, so I’m kinda cranky and I thought it would be a good day to talk about the things that are annoying me. I feel like maybe I’ve done a post like this before but I don’t care – these are the things on my mind and I’m gonna talk about them. And because I’m feeling tired and lazy, I’m going to list them in bullet form. (I’d like to thank several different accounts on social media for the inspiration for this post. No, I’m not naming which ones.)

  • When you try to tell a joke, but someone thinks you’re serious. This just happened to a friend of mine on IG today. She posted this really clever photo with an obvious joke in it and someone was all “well here’s what I think you should do…” Not everything is a problem for you to solve, Brenda! Here’s a dollar, go buy yourself a sense of humor.
  • You can’t just be a little bit into something, you have to be completely consumed by it. (I feel like maybe I have talked about this before, or at least it’s something I’ve considered writing about) If you like to read, you can’t just read a book once a month, nooooo, you have to have a whole freaking bookshelf of books you’ve bought but haven’t read or you have so many books that you don’t have room for a sofa or a coffee table…you apparently must have a problem staying out of bookstores. Or if you like coffee then ERMAHGERD you must always have tons of coffee t-shirts telling everyone how much you love coffee and your kitchen must be decorated in coffee paraphernalia and you must always have a coffee cup in your hand! Jeez Louise, can we just calm down a little bit the fanaticism? Like what you like, but don’t feel like you have to BECOME that thing. Sheesh.

 

  • The trend that seems to glorify hating your kids. “Haha! My kids are such assholes, they’ve totally wrecked my body and my life and I can’t even pee without those little jerks banging on the doors!” “I just want to drink wine and forget that I have kids, haha!” “Oh man my kids are the worst – can’t wait until they move away and I never have to see them again!” I mean, I get it, kids are tough and those years when they are little are REALLY TOUGH but if you don’t like being around your kids – it’s probably your own fault and I’m sure you aren’t the only one who doesn’t want to be around them. It’s going to be great for their self-esteem when they get old enough to read your posts on their own someday. And yes I realize these people most likely don’t really think their kids are jerks and are just joking but man, I get tired of seeing this over and over on social media. Also, being annoyed with your kids once in a while is normal – making a whole “thing” of it, however, is not.
  • (This one is going to tick someone off, I can just feel it) Youngish women who cuss. A lot. “I like to say the F word and all the other cuss words a lot because I’m a Badass woman who can do whatever she wants so I’m going to throw a bunch of cuss words into all my posts so you’ll be impressed with me and think I’m cool!” Oh Jiminy Crickets…this is the equivalent of  wearing sunglasses inside…at night. No one thinks you’re super cool because of your creative use of the F word. And please, if one more of these people links to that post that says people who cuss a lot are smarter than people who don’t, or people who cuss have bigger vocabularies..I’m going to have a meltdown (this is also sort of related to my second bullet point – okay we get it, you like to cuss, calm down). I will admit that I throw some saucy words around too occasionally (see bullet point above), but I don’t do it in every single post on social media or in every conversation. If that’s your shtick…well good luck and Godspeed; I won’t be following your account anymore.
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Me today. And most days.  (I don’t know who to credit this photo to) 

Let’s see what else is annoying me…Oh yeah. This has nothing to do with social media but:

  • When the recipe calls for 2 1/2 cups of flour but I accidentally leave out 1 cup of flour and my cookies don’t turn out right. That really burns my biscuits ( or cookies, in this case) because I haven’t had homemade cookies in a really long time and I was really looking forward to it. I mean, I can still eat them, but they’re just not the same.

So what we’ve learned here today is that 1) I need to go through and cull some of my social media feeds, 2) I really need to get a good night’s sleep tonight, and 3) I should always make sure I’m following the recipe.

Do you find that you suddenly get annoyed with things on social media? Have you ever messed up a recipe so bad, but you ate the food anyway? Do tell!!

 

Wound tighter than a what?

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I did NOT want to get up early and work out this morning, but the reason I eventually got up is also the reason I didn’t want to in the first place.  Confused?

Confession time – I binged last night. It was bad, y’all. A Very Bad Binge.  I won’t go into details about what was consumed, but I will tell you that I know exactly why I did it.

ANXIETY

I think have a lot more anxiety than I realized.  It seems like most of my binges these days are due to anxiety.  I used to think I was a boredom-eater or a stress-eater, but I think now anxiety has a lot more to do with it than anything.  And sometimes I don’t know if the anxiety is well placed or not.

Here’s what’s making me so anxious – finances and my daughter’s birthday this weekend.

First, the finances. You may or may not remember that my husband is self employed, so that means the money comes in chunks at a time instead of a steady paycheck. When the chunks take a long time to come in the mail, I start to get nervous.  My steady paycheck helps, but it can’t cover everything, especially when something extra comes into play, like birthdays, for example.  So I’ve been a little worried about when the money’s going to come through. Usually this worry is useless because the hubs has always made sure we had enough, but I still let myself get too worked up about it.

Second, the birthday. It’s actually not just the birthday, it’s that there is a lot going on during the birthday weekend that has me wound tighter than a…whatever is wound really tight (see? my brain can’t even think of the correct analogy here!).  On Friday, my daughter is having a couple of friends come over right after school and we are going to load up and go to Incredible Pizza Company (it’s like Chuck E Cheese for older kids). It’s going to be crowded and crazy there which I HATE, but I know once we get there it will be fine and fun.  Then her friends are going to spend the night that night, and the next morning my husband is leaving early (5am) for a fishing tournament. Also, my son has a band competition and has to be at the school by 8:30am Saturday morning so I have to take him.  Then I will take the friends home about noon, and  then my husband comes home from his tournament for a couple of hours, then leaves again to go on a hunting trip.  I promised my daughter that after he leaves we will go the mall and go to the Build a Bear Workshop so she can make her own stuffed animal (I’ve been promising her this for a couple of years now and this is going to be her present from my husband and I). Then that night, my neighbor wants to come over and watch a movie since both of our husbands will be gone – I’m actually looking forward to this. But my night won’t be over at that point, because if my son’s band makes it to the finals, they won’t be back to the school until midnight, at which point I will have to go and get him. At midnight. After a crazy stressful day.

Whew!

I get all anxious like this whenever birthdays roll around because I put so much pressure on myself to make it all a wonderful celebration for the birthday-person, and everything usually works out fine, but I still get the oh-my-gosh-how-am-I-going-to-make-this-all-happen nerves. So my binge last night was my attempt to soothe my frazzled nerves, and I get that, but I still hate it when it happens. So even though I felt like a bloated carcass and just wanted to sleep it away, I hauled myself outta bed and did my 30 with Elli. And now I’m dumping it all out here on the blog hoping that it will ease the nerves a bit.

I will be so glad when Sunday rolls around and I can just veg. But hey I’m 3 for 3 on the workouts! So I’ve got that going for me, which is nice.

Just freakin’ lovely.

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Hey – guess who showed up over 2 weeks late with her big bag of cramps? That’s right…my Lady Time arrived today and she has got an AT.TI.TUDE!!! Oh, and to make it even better, I have nary a sanitary napkin* or any other product of feminine hygiene. Lovely.

It’s a damn good thing this is a 3 day weekend.

*Why is it called a  sanitary napkin? It’s neither sanitary nor a napkin. Discuss.

(These are the hard-hitting subjects we tackle here at the Pear. Everything you don’t care about and really didn’t want to know.)

a la Juice

She steals from me, I steal from her – it’s all good. We love each other!  🙂 So in honor of her, here’s my post in bullet point form because I just don’t feel like putting it together all prosey-like.

  • C25k Week3Day2 is scheduled for this afternoon.  Day 1 almost killed me because I was running uphill against the wind. I’d like to run outdoors again today, but I’m super tired and my allergies are wreaking havoc on my body and whine whine whine, so I might just go to the gym (that I don’t belong to) and run on the indoor track (but if I need to lock something up, it’s okay because now I have my combo lock in my purse).
  • My job is seriously getting on my nerves. Normally I process about 200 work orders per month. This month we are already at 250 and it’s only the 15th!! And my boss just told me about some new things I have to do while processing said work orders, so that just adds to the time it takes to get them done. I am so far behind that in order to get caught up, God is going to have issue extra hours into a couple of my days.  And yet, here I sit blogging.  le sigh.
  • The work move has been postponed because apparently it’s just too difficult to get an internet connection where we are moving, even though it’s only ONE MILE AWAY.  Seriously? Can we take something that’s not complicated and turn it into a huge-freaking-deal? Can we please do that, cause I would like that. A lot.
  • Speaking of crappy work, I just discovered this blog today. Go read it and see if your boss is as bad as hers.
  • I am in a mood today (No! Really?) and it’s because I’ve gotten less than 7 hours of sleep every night so far this week. Not enough sleep sucks. Big time.
  • In related news, I’m a big baby.
  • I am currently very unhappy with the state of my life. I spend all week playing catch up at work and then on the weekends I spend the whole time playing catch up (cleaning, laundry, etc).  This is not a fun way to live.
  • In related news, I’m a big whiny baby.
  • I need a nap.
  • And more coffee.
  • And some pretty shoes. I like shoes.
  • And a cabana boy name Enrique who will do my bidding and bring me margaritas and massage my shoulders and tell me how smart and funny and beautiful I am. All day long.
  • I guess I’ll go get more coffee, since all that other stuff isn’t going to happen anytime soon.
  • le sigh.

Oh, Enrigque, where are you when I need you?

You kids get off my lawn!

Hello kids!  How’s it going?

First of all let me get my curmudgeonly self out of the way:  I hate DST. It screws up my rhythm and it takes me weeks to adjust. All because of one little measly hour.  Patooie! I spit on you, DST!! 

Oh, I’m not done.  Next up on “why Jill is turning into a cranky old lady”, I don’t feel well today. Sarah (my 9yo) had a stomach virus Saturday night and most of the day Sunday, which meant very little sleep for me. She is feeling better today, but I’m feeling a wee bit nauseated. Yuck. I hate this feeling.  😦 

And also, I still am not fond of my job. The End.

Okay now that we got that out of the way, let’s talk about the good things about today:

*crickets chirping*

Okay, so let’s recap:  I’m an old woman who is tired, ill, and cranky…yep, that about sums it up!

Oh, before I forget…  The Exercise for 10 Days Challenge is going well. I have worked out for 5 out of the last 6 days. The challenge ends on Thursday and I don’t see why I can’t work out for the next 4 days.  It’s do-able.  The No Sweets Challenge, well that’s another story. Saturday I had cake with the family, and then I had more cake yesterday afternoon. I had asked my mom  to make me an angel food cake because I thought that would be less horrific than a bakery birthday cake. Well, I underestimated my mom. She’s an old-fashioned southern cook, so to dress up that drab Angel Food Cake she made frosting. The most delicious, sweet, heart-attack-on-a-plate frosting. She used powdered sugar, half and half creamer, and…are you ready for this?…I can’t even believe it myself…SHORTENING. Yes, lots of shortening. Like I said, it was some good tasty stuff, but not so much the healthier birthday cake I was hoping for!  It all worked out okay, though. The cake was on the smallish side so the pieces weren’t very big and there was only enough for one left over piece which I devoured yesterday afternoon in a fit of “I”m tired, therefore I need sugar” (and yeah, we all know how well that works!).  Other than that, I’ve been pretty good about staying away from the sweet stuff.

Okay, well back to work for me.  Sorry this is the most boring blog post ever. I’ll try to channel my inner ray of sunshine and have a better post later. Although I can’t promise anything, cause I’m curmudgeonly that way.

 

Livin la vida funky

Still here in FunkyTown, although today I feel like I’m visiting AngryTown (it’s a suburb of FunkyTown) because I did not sleep well last night.  I kept waking up and when I did sleep, I had bad, bizarre dreams.  So today I am one big bundle of sunshine and happiness (smell that? it’s sarcasm!). 

I think there are several things going on here, the biggies being all physical:

  • I am not well rested, and haven’t been in many many days. This fact alone is enough to make me cranky, but add to it…
  • The fact that I have not had much water over the last 3 days. Nine cups of water seems to be the magical elixir I need to get me through the day, but I’ve only had 3 or 4 cups per day for the last 3 days, so I am very deficient in my hydrogen dioxide needs. I’m dehydrated, and it aint pretty.
  • I’m overloaded on sugar. I had too much sugar this weekend, and my mood (and everyone around me) is suffering for it.
  • I’m out of all of my good healthy foods, and the only foods we have left in the house are the dollar store cookies my husband bought. I hate dollar store cookies. They’re like the trailer trash of cookies.
  • I haven’t worked out in 10 days. Well, that’s not exactly true because I did some yoga yesterday, but there wasn’t any sweating involved – it doesn’t feel like a valid workout unless I’m sweating buckets. The early morning workouts are not working out, so I’m going back to my evening workouts.  I need some sweat-therapy starting TONIGHT.

I’m going to go to the grocery store after work today, and then I’m going to go home and download some new tunes so I can get my groove on. If that doesn’t adjust my attitude, then I’m going b*lls to the wall and pulling out Jillian. Heaven help me, I don’t want to go there, but I will if I have to.

Really Jill? You really want me to kick your ass? Because you know I can!

Really, Well-Known Brand? Really???

So I get this email in my inbox this morning. I’ll let you read it. Btw, I changed the name of the company, and everything in blue was added by me:

Hello and Happy Valentine’s Day from Well-Known Brand! Wed, February 10, 2010 11:35:22 AM

Hi —

 My name is XXXXX (her name isn’t really XXXXX, I just felt the need to keep her anonymous) and I work on behalf of the Well-Known brand.  We know that some of the most interesting baking content and discussions are happening online, in blogs just like yours (have you read my blog lately? When did I have any interesting baking discussions?). We came across your site and think that we have some fun baking recipes and ideas that your readers might like. If you’re interested, great! Feel free to post or start a conversation around any recipes or ideas we might send you. If not, let us know and we’ll stop emailing-no pressure.

 To start, we thought you might like a simple and fun baking idea for Valentine’s Day – Well-Known Brand®  Conversation Heart Brownies (Brownies?! Are you freaking kidding me?!). All you need is Well-Known Brand® brownie mix, frosting and some creativity to make a fun and tasty treat. You can find a the simple recipe on the Well-Known Brandwebsite by clicking here (link removed by me). We think that these Conversation Heart Brownies are a great way for everyone to bake a little something special on Valentine’s Day for the people they love.

Feel free to give this recipe a shot and post a review on your blog. If you like it and would like to try more, let us know and we’ll send you a box of brownie or cake mix to get you started (just email us back your mailing address). And don’t forget to fan/follow Well-Known Brand® on Facebook 🙂

Thanks and happy baking!

XXXXX

 Um, yeah, Hello? McFly? This is a WEIGHT LOSS WEBSITE!!  You might want to actually, oh I don’t know, READ MY BLOG before you suggest that I make BROWNIES for Valentine’s Day.  Can you believe this?  Now, I will admit, I have consumed my fair share of brownie mixes and yes, I dig me some Well-Known Brand, but come on!!  This is like giving out free bottles of Stoli at an AA meeting!!  Sheesh!! I don’t need this pressure! 

And now I want to make the dang brownies because they sound so gosh-darned yummy!!  Did I mention that I’m fighting Cake Wars with my son’s leftover birthday cake????? Hmmm??? Did I???? Well I am, and I’m sad to say that the score so far is Cake – 3, Jill – 0.  So hey, how about we throw some brownies into the mix (haha! get it? brownie mix?!) as a final blow! 

Man, this just really burns my hide (okay when I did I suddenly become Festus from Gun Smoke? Dang brownies, gosh-darned yummy, and now burns my hide? Really, Jill? Are we moving to The Ponderosa???). So anyway, yeah. There ya go.

 And we wonder why weight loss is so hard!

We interrupt your day for this very important rant

I know you probably came here today expecting something weight-loss or health related, but I just need to vent a little bit about my job. 

Ready?

I AM SO SICK OF MY JOB!!!  IT’S THE SAME THING DAY AFTER DAY WITH NO POSSIBILITY OF EVER GETTING CAUGHT UP, NO POSSIBILITY OF THINGS GETTING ANY EASIER, NO POSSIBILITY OF ANY FUN WHATSOEVER!!!!!  I’M TIRED OF WORKING HERE!!!!!!!!

grrrrrrr

 

Now, let me say that I am extremely appreciative to HAVE a job right now, when so many people are searching and searching to no avail.  I also know that I am very lucky to be employed in a place that has excellent health insurance and decent pay.  It’s just that the work I do is very uninspiring and monotonous.  I get no joy from my job and the thought of doing this for the next 25 years really depresses the hell out of me.  No, I am not in a position to quit or to even begin looking for something else.  I am stuck and most likely will remain stuck for at least the next few years unless something miraculous happens (Ed McMahan, where are you with my big oversized check? Wait, did Ed die recently? Maybe that’s the reason for the delay…)  So here I sit, typing my life away entering work orders that will have no lasting impact on anyone. 

le sigh.

Rant over.

We now return you to your regularly scheduled blog-reading.

My husband: Pure evil since 1968

He did it again!!  He made cinnamon rolls this morning – big, gooey, hot cinnamon rolls. The kids oohed and ahhhed and licked their sticky fingers in delight.  “Whoa, there’s a lot of icing on this one!!” “Yum! This is the best breakfast ever!”

I hate him.

You wanna know what I had? I had oatmeal with a banana instead of a cinnamon roll.

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OATMEAL IS A POOR SUBSTITUTE FOR A CINNAMON ROLL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I wanted a cinnamon roll soooo baaaaaad, but instead I ate oatmeal. Boring, bland, stupid oatmeal. I hate oatmeal.

Why?! Why can’t cinnamon rolls be good for you? Why does all the tasty stuff have to be so BAD??????????   It’s just not fair! *stamps foot in disgust*

Yes I know I’m being a total baby about this but I wanted a cinnamon roll dammit!! 

And no, I don’t feel superior for NOT eating the blasted cinnamon roll, and no, I won’t feel better in two hours, either. I’m probably going to be pissed off all morning long because I’m 38 years old and I am a big baby. So there!

Stupid cinnamon roll.

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