Hello 2018

Well Hi!

How’s the new year treating you so far? Still keeping those resolutions? Yeah, me neither. Actually, I didn’t make any new year resolutions because I don’t need that feeling of failure so early in the year. I like to fail later, like around mid-summer when I fail to have that tanned & toned body yet again (for the 22nd year in a row). “Fail Later” is my motto! It has served me well.

And while we’re at it, can we all just agree to put off our “New Year New You” efforts until like, March or something? It’s still just too damn cold in January to try to change out of our six layers of clothing into a t-shirt and capris for the gym. Our bodies and minds were under enough stress and strain from the holidays – can we please just use January as a time to relax and hibernate? I’ll be on board for getting in shape when the temps are 50º or above, but until then, it’s going to be a “no” from me.

Not to say I’ve become a complete slug – I move around at work when I can, I stand up and stretch at my desk regularly, I’m taking my supplements and trying to up my veggie intake, but I’m not killing it in the gym. In fact, I haven’t even been to my gym this month – I’m letting all the Resolutioners get their fill first. I may go back next week when it’s not so crowded, or I may go just to sit in the massage chair. I’d get in the sauna but that would mean taking off my six layers of clothing and I already covered that in the previous paragraph, so…not happening.

How about instead of fighting our natural instinct to hibernate, we all just relax into it and give ourselves some grace and compassion and realize that it will be easier to work out when it warms up a bit. If, however, you are already crushing your New Year goals, then by all means keep at it! But if you are playing war in your head with what you feel you *should* be doing versus what you want to do (or don’t want to do), then just give yourself some time to get used to the idea of working out regularly again. Take a breath, start small and easy, and then work your way up to a full-on sweatfest. The gym will still be waiting for you with open arms if/when you decide to get back into it.

Now, if you’ll excuse me, I have some more hibernating to do.

I need this blanket!! It looks so snuggly! 

http://amzn.to/2Dugtsg

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That 5 minute stretch felt really good.

Got m’self up at 5:15 again this morning and I had planned on doing a full body workout but since I couldn’t find a sportsbra anywhere in my closet (seriously where did they all go???) I decided to do a Leslie Sansone walking workout instead because it’s low impact (and wouldn’t need a sportsbra for it). Is that TMI? Sorry!

I found a 30 minute video on The YouTubes and about 25 minutes in, I knew I was getting bored and I also knew that I wanted to stretch before I needed to go jump in the shower and get ready for work. Back in the day, I would have pushed myself to finish the whole video, would have skipped the stretching, and would have been slightly disappointed with the whole thing. Today, however, I let those last 5 minutes of the video go, and I found a quick 5 minute stretching video to do instead. I left my workout feeling great, knowing I had listened to what my body wanted instead of what my brain said I “should” do. And this is the thing that will keep me coming back for more – letting my body tell my brain what it wants to do, and letting myself trust my body to know what’s good for it. Not listening to my body hasn’t worked so well in the past, so let’s see what kind of magic happens when I *do* actually listen.

Tornados! Hail! Wind Gusts! Rain! ALL THE WEATHERS ARE COMING FOR YOU!!

Good morning! Is it Friday yet???? 🙂

After some careful effort and lots of encouragement from Amanda, the cookie issue became a non-issue for the rest of last week. I did really well and felt so much better. I had been on the straight and narrow for several days until yesterday. We had severe storms moving in – talk of 65mph winds and golf ball sized hail, so I was watching the news to keep track of the storm. My husband was off on a hunting trip and would be driving right into the direction of the storm. I was a wee bit worried. 

Maybe it’s because it’s Oklahoma and tornadoes can pop up any minute, but our weather guys are on top of impending weather issues. I mean seriously on top of things. They will talk non stop about the storms and where they are headed and what they have damaged (which I totally and completely appreciate, btw), but sometimes I find myself getting carried away on the nervous tide of IMPENDING SEVERE WEATHER ISSUES. 

The more I listened to the weatherman, the more anxious I got. He was super excited!, so I got super excited! (nervous excited, not happy excited). The faster he would talk, the more nervous I got. I could feel my shoulders inching up closer and closer to my ears as my muscles got more and more tense. 

Guess what happens when I get anxious? Yep. I headed to the kitchen. 

I tried to keep my nervous nibbling to healthy foods: some grapes, a slice of provolone cheese, some leftover chicken breast…but what I really wanted was something crunchy, salty, and would take a while to eat. POPCORN! I popped myself some corn and that did the trick for awhile, but I found myself wanting needing chocolate. So I ate a few (5 to be exact) chocolate eggs and that seemed to soothe the nervous beast within. (Did I mention that my Special Lady Time finally arrived on Saturday after being THREE WEEKS LATE??? That did not help my situation at all. I’m going to write a strongly worded letter to Mother Nature about that.) I followed that up with some Raisin Bran for dinner and was finally done. 

It’s been a long time since I’ve eaten like that for anxiety reasons. I guess I should be happy because that used to be a daily thing, but I’m still disappointed that I let it get away from me like that. In hindsight, there’s a lot of things I could have done differently:

1) Turn off the Overly Excited Weather Man. The storm came through and yes, it was dark and ominous for about an hour but then it blew on through. It rained, no hail. Typical spring storm. Husband got home fine. 

2) I could have done yoga instead of eating.

3) I could have taken a nap instead of eating.

4) I could have drank (could have drunk?) a big glass of water – I hadn’t had much water and was actually quite thirsty. 

My weight on Friday was in the low 190s but a quick peek this morning showed it bounced back up in the mid 190s. My hope is that a lot of water and a couple of days back on track will bring my weight back down. Something else I need to get back to is tracking on the weekends. I’ve not been doing that and as a result, I tend to get a little loosey-goosey on the weekends, so I need to cut that out. The plan for this week is: plenty of water, plenty of healthy foods, plenty of activity, and plenty of tracking. I can do that. 

I’m curious, do any of you get this way when watching the weather or is it just me? I’m all for being prepared and taking things seriously, but yesterday could have been a great napping/movie-watching day if I hadn’t been so Chicken Little about it. I kept myself confined to my bedroom to keep my kids from picking up on my nervous energy – they didn’t seem to notice anything unusual, at least I got that part right. We still have a couple of months of Spring Tornado/Severe Weather here, so I’m getting this lesson learned early, thank goodness. Trying really hard here to take away the good things and not beat myself up about yesterday. That in itself is progress.

Lesson learned: don’t get carried away with the weather guys. Check in periodically, but don’t let it get the best of you. Be safe, but don’t be a worry wart and most of all, don’t turn to food for comfort. 

Class dismissed. 🙂

 

BUI

Um, wow. Well yesterday’s post was just weird…and random. Take note, kids: never blog while under the influence. Even if it is just antihistamines. Blogging Under the Influence is bad for the planet. And it makes the angels cry. Don’t make the angels cry. Not even once. 

Lots of stuff going on in the world of The Pear. I’m still working with my amazing coach/ RD extraordinaire, Amanda – this woman deserves a medal for sticking with me this long. It’s been just over 3 months and I feel like I must be a tough nut to crack. She says I’m too hard on myself (actually lots of people tell me that now that I think of it), but when I keep repeating the same mistakes over and over, it gets a little aggravating for me. We are working on getting me OUT of those ruts, but man, it’s a long and winding road (thank you Paul McCartney). 

Okay, here’s my latest food-dilemma: for a long time, I did really well with staying away from sweets unless it was something I planned for, but lately I find myself dipping into the cookie jar again. I mean literally, I have a cookie jar and I can’t seem to stay out of it. Now, the logical advice would be to stop buying the d@mn cookies, I realize that, but I already bought them. They have already taken up residence in my house and made themselves at home. And no I’m not going to throw them away –  I’m just not. So. How do I make myself not get sucked into the lie I tell myself (oh, one cookie won’t hurt. You deserve it!!) because it NEVER ends with one cookie. It rarely ends with 4 cookies, but I digress. A couple of ideas I’ve thought of include putting a red sticker on the offending jar to remind myself to Stop Drop And Roll Away from the kitchen, or I could even tell myself that I can have the cookie but I have to do 100 jumping jacks or 25 Burpees to even it out – the idea being that since I hate doing anything remotely jump-y I’ll forego the cookie so I won’t have to jar my body. Got any other bright ideas or deterrents or magical suggestions for me?? 

In other less-whiny news, I’ve also taken up running (again) 3 days a week. I downloaded this app to my phone and now every(ish) MWF, I’m up at 5:20 IN THE MORNING  and I’m pounding it out on the treadmill. I’d like to start running outside because running on a treadmill is fourteen kinds of no fun, but it’s dark at 5:20 in the a.m. and I’m a big baby. Okay, I guess that was kind of whiny, but hey at least I’m running again. 

On Tuesdays/Thursdays I’m getting my zen on. I’ve been given a subscription to a yoga website, but I’m having some technical issues with some of the videos and I want to see if they can help before I out them. They have some great office yoga videos that I’ve been making use of and I love it! It feels so good to get in a good stretch in the middle of the day. When I can’t get into their videos, I just pull up a routine from My Pocket Yoga app on my Kindle Fire – that’s what I did this morning. It was enough to get me sweaty this morning, so I call it a win. There was a lot of downward-dogging this morning so I’ll be lucky if I can lift my arms tomorrow.

And now for something completely different: My hubs and I got a really nice complement today: we ran into an old friend today and we chatted with him for several minutes before saying our goodbyes. As we were leaving he said, “Hey! You’re still married – good job!!” and he pumped his fist in the air a couple of times. He said “it’s nice to see someone staying married for a change!!” He’s been divorced for several years, and just in the last couple of years a lot of my husband’s friends have gotten divorced as well, and I just found out today that another couple we know just got divorced. The hubs and I will celebrate 18 years of marriage this summer, and I’m SUPER HYPER AWARE that a lot of couples divorce even after 20+ years together. I know we still have a long way to go, but it was nice to have someone acknowledge that 18 years together is an accomplishment. ♥

I suppose that’s all I have to tell for now. I’m going to make a concerted effort to blog more than 3 times a month. It’s one of those things I love, yet lately I don’t make time to do it. Gotta fix that. So expect to see a little bit more of my ramblings in the coming days. Yay? 

Catch ya later tater tots! 🙂

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Buzzzzzzz

Hey Internet!

So, I mistakenly took a Benadryl this morning when I meant to take an Allegra allergy pill – (note to self: have coffee FIRST before taking medication) and all day I have felt FUNKY. At first I was just  a little buzzy – just a nice little buzz to get me through the morning. Then I felt sort of fuzzy headed – like I was slurring my thoughts. Now I feel like I’m on the downhill side of drunk – still a little buzzy but I just want to find the nearest couch so I can pass out and sleep for 14 hours. 

I’m ssssooooo sleeeeepeeeeeeee!!!!! 

I have lots to blog at ya, so I’ll come back tomorrow when I’m a little more lucid and we can talk then. (you don’t even want to know how many typos this post has had before I went back to correct them – yikes!!) 

Buzzily,

Jill 

So I did this today

 

Kyra is hosting a Virtual 5k Race Series and today was the first race. I walked/jogged 3.25* miles in 56:12 on my treadmill in my garage because it was supposed to be cold and rainy this morning. Well it’s chilly outside but not rainy so I could have run outside, but since I slept in until 9am this morning (Nyquil), and I needed to make breakfast for the kiddos, I decided to call up my ol’ pal Liz Lemon and have her run with me via The Netflix. 

I walked most of those 3 miles, but about every 5 minutes, I threw in a 2-3 minute jog. I think that on Monday I’m going to start a couch to 5k training plan. I’d really like to get myself back up to running a lot more – it’s true what they say “if you don’t use it, you lose it”. I’m also going to try and start running outside more, at least on the weekends. Treadmill running sorta sucks. :/

Protip: don’t walk/run 3 miles on an empty stomach. I did fine during the walk, but at the end I was spent. It took all my energy to get myself into the shower and wash off. But then I made a fabulous breakfast consisting of a whole wheat pancake, 2 eggs, and some strawberries and after eating that I felt 100% better, so it’s all good. Next time I’ll eat a little something beforehand so I don’t have to crawl to the shower afterwards (just kidding, I didn’t really crawl. Zombie-walked is probably more accurate). 

You can still get in on the action if you want – just go here and sign up. There’s also a handy Facebook page for the participants. It’s a fun time – you should totally join. All the cool kids are doing it. Just sayin’. 😎

*yes, I know a 5k is actually 3.1 miles but my treadmill only advances in .25 increments. My plan was to stop once it got down to .15 but I forgot and did the whole 3.25 miles. *sigh*