Good morning! Is it Friday yet???? 🙂

After some careful effort and lots of encouragement from Amanda, the cookie issue became a non-issue for the rest of last week. I did really well and felt so much better. I had been on the straight and narrow for several days until yesterday. We had severe storms moving in – talk of 65mph winds and golf ball sized hail, so I was watching the news to keep track of the storm. My husband was off on a hunting trip and would be driving right into the direction of the storm. I was a wee bit worried. 

Maybe it’s because it’s Oklahoma and tornadoes can pop up any minute, but our weather guys are on top of impending weather issues. I mean seriously on top of things. They will talk non stop about the storms and where they are headed and what they have damaged (which I totally and completely appreciate, btw), but sometimes I find myself getting carried away on the nervous tide of IMPENDING SEVERE WEATHER ISSUES. 

The more I listened to the weatherman, the more anxious I got. He was super excited!, so I got super excited! (nervous excited, not happy excited). The faster he would talk, the more nervous I got. I could feel my shoulders inching up closer and closer to my ears as my muscles got more and more tense. 

Guess what happens when I get anxious? Yep. I headed to the kitchen. 

I tried to keep my nervous nibbling to healthy foods: some grapes, a slice of provolone cheese, some leftover chicken breast…but what I really wanted was something crunchy, salty, and would take a while to eat. POPCORN! I popped myself some corn and that did the trick for awhile, but I found myself wanting needing chocolate. So I ate a few (5 to be exact) chocolate eggs and that seemed to soothe the nervous beast within. (Did I mention that my Special Lady Time finally arrived on Saturday after being THREE WEEKS LATE??? That did not help my situation at all. I’m going to write a strongly worded letter to Mother Nature about that.) I followed that up with some Raisin Bran for dinner and was finally done. 

It’s been a long time since I’ve eaten like that for anxiety reasons. I guess I should be happy because that used to be a daily thing, but I’m still disappointed that I let it get away from me like that. In hindsight, there’s a lot of things I could have done differently:

1) Turn off the Overly Excited Weather Man. The storm came through and yes, it was dark and ominous for about an hour but then it blew on through. It rained, no hail. Typical spring storm. Husband got home fine. 

2) I could have done yoga instead of eating.

3) I could have taken a nap instead of eating.

4) I could have drank (could have drunk?) a big glass of water – I hadn’t had much water and was actually quite thirsty. 

My weight on Friday was in the low 190s but a quick peek this morning showed it bounced back up in the mid 190s. My hope is that a lot of water and a couple of days back on track will bring my weight back down. Something else I need to get back to is tracking on the weekends. I’ve not been doing that and as a result, I tend to get a little loosey-goosey on the weekends, so I need to cut that out. The plan for this week is: plenty of water, plenty of healthy foods, plenty of activity, and plenty of tracking. I can do that. 

I’m curious, do any of you get this way when watching the weather or is it just me? I’m all for being prepared and taking things seriously, but yesterday could have been a great napping/movie-watching day if I hadn’t been so Chicken Little about it. I kept myself confined to my bedroom to keep my kids from picking up on my nervous energy – they didn’t seem to notice anything unusual, at least I got that part right. We still have a couple of months of Spring Tornado/Severe Weather here, so I’m getting this lesson learned early, thank goodness. Trying really hard here to take away the good things and not beat myself up about yesterday. That in itself is progress.

Lesson learned: don’t get carried away with the weather guys. Check in periodically, but don’t let it get the best of you. Be safe, but don’t be a worry wart and most of all, don’t turn to food for comfort. 

Class dismissed. 🙂