Leave the drama with your mama

Well, crud.

I made it to Sunday being sugarless, but by that afternoon, I was done. I had a couple of cookies and some froyo – nothing tragic. But then on Monday…oh man, the floodgates opened and I had a binge of epic proportions. I came home after work and had my pre-planned snack and then I just went BERSERK. I’m not even sure why.

Well I do kind of know why, it’s been a rough week, I’ll just say that. Yes I’m aware it’s only Tuesday but it’s been a really long 2 days so far, OKAY????  I’m sure I’ll get over myself eventually, but yesterday I just flipped my lid and ate my kitchen and now I hate myself and my uncontrollable urges. Oh, calm down, I don’t really hate myself I’m just being dramatic because it’s a Norma Desmond kind of day. I’m ready for my closeup Mr. DeMille!

I’ve always been big! It’s the pictures that got small.


So anyway, now I’m trying to dig my way out of my spectacular crash and burn. What frustrates me the most I think is that last week felt so easy! I did great all week long – I was satisfied with what I ate and didn’t feel like I was struggling at all. This week has been the exact opposite. Maybe tomorrow I’ll start back on my no-sugar plan and try to make the rest of the week something to be proud of. I’m also really tired and if you’ve been around here long, you know that when I’m tired, all bets are off. Allergies and staying up too late working are not helping my attitude this week, so tonight I will get to bed by 10:30 eve if it kills me!! Which I hope it doesn’t because hello, death. Not a goal of mine right now.

Check ya later!

Jill, out.

6 thoughts on “Leave the drama with your mama

  1. Keep going. Wel all have our up and down days. Don’t be too hard on yourself when you give in. Your only human like the rest of us. The key is to not let that set back become the stopping point along the road to your success.

  2. What Keith said! Sometimes when I get down on myself for an overly indulgent day I will look back over the years since I first started losing weight and think of all the things I’ve eaten that weren’t ‘perfect’ or ‘on plan’ and sometimes I am amazed that I could still lose weight. Just get up and keep going.

  3. I feel your pain. I just had a baby 10 weeks ago and have been trying to watch what I eat since he was born. Chocolate is my downfall. Especially Dove chocolates. There have been a few times I have gone crazy and eaten waywayway more chocolate in one sitting than should even be humanly possible. It makes me feel like crap afterwards, but I always try to remember that just because I messed up doesn’t mean I have ruined anything. Not the week. Not the day. Not even that hour. Even if I binged I always have an opportunity to stop, evaluate what happened, and start over. The very moment I realize that I went off course I can jump right back into it and just tell myself that I will do better the next time. Now, I just need to stop buying bags of chocolates…

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