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Happy New Year!! I hope you all had a great weekend – mine was okay. Lots of sex, drugs and rock & roll (and by sex, drugs, and rock&roll, I mean television, candy, and a SisterWives marathon) and abuse of the sugary kind, but otherwise an okay weekend.

For those of you who know Debby, she sent me a quick note to let us all know that she is in Kenya and doing great!! She wanted me to let all of you know that she was alive and well so we all wouldn’t worry. I think she should be back this weekend – I can’t wait to hear how the trip went.

Okay, on to the abuse mentioned above – this weekend I really abused my body. Does the Betty Ford clinic have a program for sugar abuse? There should be. I would so check myself in and then I would go find LiLo and smack her around and tell her to snap out of it and grow up and quit being such a brat. Is what I would do. Anyway, I abused my body with lack of sleep and way, way, waaaay too much sugar. Oh it was awful. Saturday all I could do was lie around and be bitchy all day long. It was not pretty. I felt awful, and yet the worse I felt, the more I turned to sugar. When you eat so much sugar that you get a headache, there’s a problem there. I was actually starting to get worried for my health, so I made sure I slept a decent amount that night and then Sunday (yesterday) I drank a lot of water and tried to be as productive as possible. I felt better, but I’m really disturbed by that binge. I think I know I have a lot of work to do regarding my emotional eating issues. I think one of the biggest factors for me is sleep – if I don’t get enough sleep, it really sets me up for a binge. I just don’t seem to cope with life as well when I’m tired. It’s a good thing late nights like that don’t happen very often. More proof that I am not 25 years old anymore.

I wanted to see where I was this time last year emotionally, so I re-read posts from last January. I sounded so happy and full of hope, not at all the way I feel right now. For one thing I was 25 pounds thinner this time last year – not that being thin = happiness, but I was working out a lot and eating so much better , and I know that lends a lot to my emotional well-being. I was just starting to work with iChange (I still miss those guys over there), I was enjoying my work outs, I was running a little bit, and I think I was just a lot happier with life in general. Who knew it was all going to go to sh*t in a few short months? Maybe since I’m in such a blah state at the beginning of this year, the rest of the year will be better than I expect? I sure hope so.

Aren’t you so glad you stopped by to read this uplifting post? Don’t you feel inspired to go out and do something great with your life? Yes, I am right up there with Joni Ericson Tada and Helen Keller in the inspiration department. So full of the optimism, I am. 😉

Anyway, I start Boot Camp tonight and I am a little bit skeered. I am so out of shape, what if I am the one person who can’t keep up? I don’t want to be the one who stands around watching everyone else be fit while I sweat like a Bikram yogi while standing still.

Workout anxiety – I haz it.

But, but but but!! My hubs just texted me to let me know that our Wii Fit came in today, so yeehaw!! I’m really excited to try it out after Boot Camp tonight, assuming I don’t die at Boot Camp. Really, how awful would that be to have a heart attack and die all because I wanted to get healthy? Ugh. Anyway, WiiFit Plus – yay!!

I’ll post about Boot Camp tomorrow if, ya know…I’m still around. 