I just noticed today that I missed my Blogiversary by almost 2 weeks!!  I started the Pear 3 years ago as a way to chronicle my journey with IE.  Since that time I have done everything under the sun and nearly 3 years later, I have come full circle. I am at almost the same weight I was when I started this blog, and I am once again dabbling in a form of IE because I cannot deal with dieting.

Wow.

Is that a good thing or a bad thing? Maybe I don’t learn from past failures/successes. Maybe I need to go back a reread my history and actually learn something from it. I mean isn’t that why have history? So we won’t make the same mistakes over and over?

But maybe my journey goes in a spiral, instead of a line.  Maybe I have to come back a visit these old attempts to learn something new.  I don’t know really, I just know that whenever I try to stop blogging, I always come back for more. There’s something very therapeutic about writing it all down here.

And yeah I’ll admit that sometimes I write for my “audience”, but mostly I write because it gives me confidence. Even if I can’t do anything else, at least I can write a coherent post!

So what do I want from this next year of blogging?  I just want to be able to get a handle on my eating. I wan’t to be able to figure out a way to work out consistently  that fits in with my life. That’s it. That’s all I really want from this blog. So maybe I need to start blogging on my eating experiments and my work out attempts? Could it work? Who knows.

I know I say this every year (and sometimes more often than that), but if it weren’t for you who read this blog, I would probably be 200 pounds and very lonely.  You all have given me the gift of friendship, support, and laughs when I needed it the most. You all are the real reason I keep blogging – I would miss you too much if I stopped!! So thank you for all you have done for me – you will never really know how important it is!!

🙂