Hey all! Hope you guys are having a good week so far.
I have decided to embrace the wearing of dresses this summer. Typically I am a jeans and tennis shoes kind of girl – comfy and casual is my trademark dressing style, but lately I have been wearing summer dresses and I LOVE THEM. Holy cow, they are super comfy and so easy – just put it on and go! The types of dresses I wear are to-the-knee or longer so I feel appropriately covered, but still cool and easy-breezy. I’ve never really embraced shorts or skirts mainly because my legs are pasty white, veiny, short, and chubby. I carry the bulk of my weight in my thighs, so showing anything above the knee always made me feel self-conscious, and showing anything below the knee made me feel self-conscious. This year however, I don’t really care. I figure if I have on a cute skirt or dress, that will get noticed before my legs will, so I’m just gonna go with it!
I learned something during my 5k last weekend that was pretty eye-opening for me, but first a little background. I had bought some new shorts and a short sleeved running top to wear to my race, but after I put it on, I felt like it was too clingy – all the bumps and rolls could be very easily seen so I opted instead for a loose tank and some regular athletic shorts, thinking at least this way people wouldn’t point and laugh at my big behind and muffin top. When we got to the race, imagine my surprise when LOTS of women there had on the same type of outfit that I was going to wear, and these women were not skinny-minnies. I saw women with wide hips and chunky thighs and big behinds and big breasts shoved into sports bras and they didn’t care a lick at what they looked like. They were there to run, not sashay down a runway. Lesson learned – a 5k race is not about fashion, it’s about PERFORMANCE, and you wear whatever is going to allow you to perform your best – fat rolls be damned!! So next time I won’t be so self conscious about what I wear (although I do think the tank top was a good idea since it was so stinking hot that day!).
Something else I gleaned from that day was pivotal in my training mind…there were many, many, many women there who were older and bigger than myself who left me in the dust! It didn’t matter how big their derrieres were, they had trained and they were in shape and they RAN that 5k all the way to the end. I’ve been saying to myself all along “if I were 20 pounds lighter, running would be so much easier” (and it’s possible it would be), but maybe it’s not my weight that’s slowing me down, maybe it’s my lack of consistent training. It gives me hope that even at my size I can train to go the distance.
On to other news, you know how some people have adverse reactions to peanuts, or pollen, or strong odors? Well, I think I have adverse reactions to dieting. Really, I do. I think I’m allergic to counting calories in that when I do, it sets off something in my brain that says “Danger Will Robinson, Danger!!” and it leads to a meltdown of epic proportions (okay, maybe not EPIC proportions, but you know what I mean). I’m not going to play the diet game anymore. I just can’t. I am going to eat as best as I can, and move whenever I can, and try to overcome the demon of emotional eating. I’m going to do it within the framework of nourishing my body, mind, and spirit.
And speaking of that, I have been poking around the internet looking for sights that tap into that very thing, and I ran across a quote (and for the life of me, I cannot remember where I saw it or who said it – I’m sorry!) but it said something along the lines of, and I’m totally paraphrasing here, that we need to stop thinking of self-care as a luxury and start thinking of it as a necessity. For myself, getting pedicures are very much a luxury, but the joy that I get out getting one shouldn’t be reserved for special occasions – if I enjoy them so much, why do I not get them more often? They don’t cost a lot, and they make me feel pampered and pretty, so why don’t I treat myself to this kindness more often? I don’t know why, but I can tell you that I’m going to start, and isn’t it lucky that today is payday?! Other things that I can do to incorporate regular luxuries into my life are taking a yoga class, giving myself permission to sit down and read a book, taking a bubble bath after the kids have gone to bed (or maybe early in the morning before they wake up – I hadn’t thought of that!!), buying a pair of earrings for myself for no particular reason…I could probably go on and on if I think about it long enough!
So what are some of your luxuries that you need to turn into necessities?
What important lessons have you learned this week?