Kryptonite Brownies

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Okay, so apparently my super powers are only effective against cinnamon rolls, but not brownies.  Last night, my in-laws came over for a visit while I was getting ready to change into my work out clothes. While I was in the bedroom, he (my wonderful husband) pulls out a brownie mix, whips it up, and puts it in the oven to bake. After I chatted with the inlaws for a few minutes, I went out to get in a quick workout (only 20 minutes, boo) and when I re-entered the house from the garage, BuhBam! The lovely sweet aroma of brownies hit right square in the nostrils! 

I used my Super Strength to avoid those brownies for all of 3.2 seconds, and then I was so exhausted from the  effort that I gave in and had a brownie. What could I do? Everyone else was eating a brownie, and I didn’t want to be the odd man out, so I had one. I had done pretty well with my diet all day, so I thought I could eat one. And I deserved one because I fought off the Evil Cinnamon Roll on Monday! Right? RIGHT?!

*coughBullSh*t*cough

Okay, I know those are all really lame excuses, and I take full responsibility – I made the choice to eat the dang brownie.  I’m not blaming my indescretion on anyone else – I could have walked away if I really wanted to, but I didn’t give myself a chance to think about it – I just ate it before I could change my mind. And this herein lies my biggest problem – I let myself off the hook a lot. When it comes to things like this, here’s my internal dialogue:

Me:  Ooooh! Brownies!! Come to me my sweet chocolate lover!!

Me: Oh, I shouldn’t. I’ve done so well today, I don’t want to wreck it all now with one little brownie.

Me: But they smell so DIVINE.  Just one isn’t going to hurt.

Me: But what if it does hurt?

Me: It won’t. It will feel good. I mean look at them! How can anything that chocolately hurt you? Besides if you don’t eat one, you’ll pout.

Me: Maybe if I don’t give in, I’ll feel virtuous. If I don’t give in, I’ll feel better about myself tomorrow.

Me: Oh for crying out loud! You are an adult and you can have one brownie! It’s not the end of the friggin world if you eat a brownie! Just eat the dang thing and move on!!!

Me: Well since you put it that way…I guess I’ll eat just one.  *gobbles up brownie reallysuperfast* 

And that’s what does me in every time. It’s the “I”m an adult and I can do whatever I damn well please” line that gets me to cave every. single. time.  Yes, I’m an adult, but does that mean I get to sabotage myself? Does being an adult mean that I can do whatever I want whenever I want? No.  I need to retrain my brain to think that being an adult means saying NO the hard stuff because ultimately it will lead to saying YES to good stuff, like “Would you like this shirt in a Small?” “Yes, please!” 

*Sigh*  Who knew the simple premise of “eat less, move more” could be so complicated?

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6 thoughts on “Kryptonite Brownies

  1. Yes, I can’t believe I posted about eating a brownie the same day you did. And the reason I said it was not that good was because I could tell it was made with a brownie mix. So you’d think I would have nothing to say about your problem…

    But really. How does the brownie mix get in the house? And does all this baking mean that he likes you the way you are and really doesn’t want you to change? Because really, either your goals are a deep dark secret that he doesn’t know about, or this is plain old sabotage . what do the iChange people say about living with people who want to eat differently than you?

    • Well to be quite honest, I haven’t been very vocal about wanting to lose weight. And yes, he thinks I’m fine the way I am, so I don’t think he realizes how torturous it is for me to have to face down a pan of brownies!

      And I have to confess, I BOUGHT THE BROWNIES!!! There I said it. *hangs head in shame* but I bought them before I started the iChange thing.

      And yeah, there has been more baking in the last 5 days than in the last 5 months! 🙂

      • debby

        THAT is so funny Jill! And do you know what? I bet there is some out of date cake mix in my cupboard. I was obsessed with all the ‘low cal’ cakes and desserts you could make with them when I started W.W.

        I just know, even though I don’t consider them ‘worthy’ I would have eaten more than one brownie if I smelled them baking in my house! (I used to be a brownie connoisseur. I actually have a recipe in my book called ‘World’s Best Brownies.’ Named that by me because I tried all the brownie recipes in the world and this was the best one.)

        That’s kind of fascinating to me that you haven’t been that vocal about wanting to lose weight since that’s mainly what we talk about (says the woman whose never been married and doesn’t really know about these things.)

        • Well, he knows that I WANT to lose weight, and that I’m trying, it’s just not something we have big lengthy discussion about at home. Plus I try not to talk about it too much because I don’t want my 9 year old daughter to have food issues – I finally broke down and told her that I’m trying to eat healthier so that I can get to a healthier weight. As long as I keep it in a health-related context, I think it’s okay.

  2. Forgot to comment–I love your conversations with yourself. And the line ‘Oh for crying out loud! You are an adult and you can have one brownie!’ Yeah. I use that one on myself. Only I usually substitute 55 years old for adult.

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