Today’s weight 161.  Ugh. You’re killing me, Smalls!

So I was reading Debby’s latest post in which she slaps me around made me realize that if I want change, then I have to DO change (okay that made no sense grammatically, but you know what I mean).  And here is what she said that shook me up:

Unless you are willing to accept that you are going to have to do SOMETHING ELSE.  What you are doing now is not working.  You will have to do something else.  And you will have to do something else for the rest of your life.  That’s a big order.  For some, a bitter pill to swallow.  But you know, sometimes a bitter pill is the only cure available.

If you read her comments you will see that I said what I’m about to say here (in fact I just copied and pasted most of my comment), and that is that I am at this point right now. I know I need to change what I have been doing, but change is scary and I typically avoid things that scare me, like mass murderers and Walmart on a Saturday. There is a part of the iChange thing I’m doing that says to purge your pantry of all the junk – this has had me paralyzed for 3 days, and I’m not sure why. I KNOW intellectually that this is a big step toward success, but emotionally it’s probably the hardest part. Since I have 4 other people to consider in my household, I am scared of confronting them with the idea of telling them “all that cereal, those snacks, those crackers, your cookies, all that stuff you love? Yeah well it’s gotta go!” I am so afraid of the backlash that might ensue – I don’t want to deal with the complaints and whining etc that I’m sure will follow, and yet I know it’s the right thing to do. 

So here I am, at this crossroads where I can do what I know will get my family and I healthy, or I can just stay on the same old path I’ve been on, staying at the same weight, in the same shape for the rest of my life.

I NO LIKEY CHANGE!!!!!!

So how do I confront the fam? How do I get over the fear of change? And what’s your favorite scene from The Sandlot? And if you’ve never seen The Sandlot, what’s wrong with you? Seriously, if you’ve never seen it, please go rent it this weekend – and then report back to me and tell me what your favorite scene is.  🙂