So my last post (not the Day 20 challenge, the other one) was a little harsh. I harshed on myself (1990 called, they want their catch phrase back) and now that I’ve had a little time to think about it, I actually HAVE learned a few things in these past 365 days, and because I loves me some bullet points, I shall put all my thoughts into bullet-point order:

• I eat less. It’s true – I have learned to be satisfied with less food. I rarely eat to the point of being overstuffed anymore (notice I didn’t say “never”).

• I can recognize when I am feeling snacky and when I am truly hungry. A lot of times I can stop myself when I am being snacky and I can analyze what is really going on (usually it has to do with being bored or wanting to postpone some lovely activity like laundry or mopping).

• I know the value of regular exercise, and it has little to do with losing weight. For me, exercise calms my mind, gives me energy, and boosts my self esteem. When I don’t exercise regularly, my mood darkens and I feel zapped (as evidenced by my last post). Sometimes I forget just much it affects me and I slack off, but I’m working on reminding myself of how much my mind and body really does (really do? what is the correct grammar here?) need it.

• I have discovered that what I really love most about the diet pills is more for what it does for my head than what it does for my body. It quiets the “crazy food thoughts”. I don’t think about food ALL. THE. TIME. when I’m on the pills, but I don’t think that taking the pills forever would be a very smart thing either, so I have to figure out a way to quiet those thoughts without chemical stimulation.

I’m sure I’ve learned more, but it’s that last bullet point that is going to be the focus of my challenge for today. Every hour until 4pm today, I am going to take one minute and meditate (after 4pm, I’ll be at home and I don’t know if I’ll be able to get to a quiet spot!). I am going to close my eyes and pray that no one walks into my office to disturb my 60 seconds of stillness. I have been feeling like a lot of thoughts are tumbling around in my brain like clothes in a dryer, and so I need to do something to calm them down. I hope this works – I’ll let you know.