The post in which I whine a lot

Hello Saturday Blog Readers! 

I’ve been thinking (a dangerous pasttime, I know) and when I’ve been thinking about one particular thing for awhile, it inevitably ends up as a blog post. Before the Smashed Finger, I was on a serious roll – cardio, strength training, tracking my food – I felt great and was happy.  For the last 6 weeks, I have been derailed – have flopped and fluttered and failed when it comes to working out, and it pisses me off because I know better. I’ve been reading weight loss/healthy living blogs long enough to know that when one is truly committed, one does not let life throw them off track.  Yet, I have thrown myself off the track. I don’t for one minute think that I will ever be perfect with it, but persistant and consistant is what I’m striving for, but I can’t even seem to conquer those two things. Ugh!  I don’t feel shame, just a sort of pissed-offedness that I let my focus get blurry.

This time of year produces a lot of anxiety for me (money,time,etc) and I know that regular exercise would help tremendously, but I am…I don’t know…afraid to start again? It’s a weird feeling, and not one I like very much. 

I am still doing okay with the upkeep of my house and so today I won’t have to spend 8 hours cleaning up, maybe one hour at the most, so I plan on doing some pre-holiday planning and lots of relaxing – I think I need this more than anything. Life has been hectic lately and I think I need some time to decompress. Maybe a trip to the library would do me some good -I love the peace and serene feeling of a library, don’t you?

Okay, going to get my day started. I hope you all have a fabulous weekend!



4 thoughts on “The post in which I whine a lot

  1. I’ve had that ‘afraid to start again’ feeling too. Its so weird, because once you start its like no big deal.

    I think this is more about your anxiety and just needing some down-time for yourself. After all, when you commit yourself to work that much, you really need to give yourself some time off to relax! Oh, I just re-read. I really like your idea of doing some pre-holiday planning. That is fun, and will really take care of some of the anxiety. I hope you had a good day today, and an even better day tomorrow!

  2. Don’t be so hard on yourself! You experienced a major injury (even though it may have been to a smaller part of the body, it’s still a major injury) and you need to give yourself some downtime and some TIME just generally.

    Getting started again is tough but the only way to do it is just to DO IT. I went to the gym for the first time in 6 weeks yesterday. I’m sore. I’m achy. I’m tired. But I did it. And I’ll do it again.

    So will you.

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