It’s such a mental thing isn’t it?

I have worked out exactly twice in the last 25 days, and both days I had to really talk myself into it.  Granted the first 10 days I was not in a good place mentally (or physically – who knew that one finger injury would derail my whole body?) for working out, but these last two weeks have been about being out of the habit. Trying to get back into the mindset and habit of working out is HARD (not impossible, just hard). This whole time it’s been a matter of trying to figure out what it’s going to take to get me back to a place where working out is on my radar as a I go through my day and NOT a matter of beating myself up because I haven’t worked out for most of this month.  I sort of instinctively know that I’ll get back into it; I’m just trying to get my head in the right place about it again. I’m pretty much over the days of shaming myself or being frustrated with myself for things like this – having that roadblock out of the way allows me to see that there are different roads I can take, I just have to decide which one is going to move me forward, and then I actually have to MOVE FORWARD. 

 

Before the GFS*, I was journaling my food and doing cardio 4 days per week and strength training 3 days per week – I was on a roll and in the groove!  All of that came to a screeching halt, and I have not done any of that in the last 3 weeks, except this morning I thought “what small thing can I do to move myself toward getting those healthy thoughts in my head again?” and I decided that journaling my food is the easiest thing I can do right now. So I did. Those thoughts are slowly starting to creep back in, and I like it -makes me feel better. Maybe tomorrow I can get in a good sweaty workout (it might happen tonight, but I’m on chauffeur duty for the kiddos, so we’ll see) and get it started again.  

 

I was catching up on my Google Reader stuff and I read a post from Vickie in which she says:

 

 “I have heard people say that it is easier to stop drinking – because when you stop – you don’t ever HAVE to have another drink. But eating is something that you have to do (and therefore harder – or hopeless as some people like to think). The difference for me is thinking of FOOD and NON-FOOD. Most people do not binge on food. Most people binge on NON-food. And it is possible to live a life of never eating NON-food again. Just like not drinking alcohol again.

 

Dingdingding! That was the sound that went off in my head when I read that. That’s not to say that I won’t ever NOT eat non-food, but for some reason it makes this whole eating-better/losing-weight thing a little more clear for me. Yes, I can realistically go my whole life without ever eating McDonald’s again and be just fine (probably better than just fine, actually!), so it IS possible. I like that.

 

That’s all the brainswirl I’ve got for today, I’ll check back in a couple of days – because it seems like there is always something swirling in my brain!  🙂

 

 

*GFS = the Great Finger Smashing of 2009 (smashing sounds so harmless, but I think it sounds better than The Great Finger Injury where I Blew Out the Guts of My Finger Tip)

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11 thoughts on “It’s such a mental thing isn’t it?

  1. How is that finger doing, by the way? Hope it is recovering nicely! And it sounds like you’re on your way to getting your groove back. Maybe just start small, 5 minutes per day for one week, then move up to 10 minutes the next week, etc. until it’s a habit again?

  2. so so true! I seem to fall in and out of everything health related, not just work outs. My eating gets into healthy swings, my body image, my work out schedule, everything! My recent motivation has been to find something outside my usual routine to tie me in. For example, I have to go to the gym 3x/wk to get my insurance rebate, so for the past 6 weeks, I’ve done just that! Maybe you need an event to look forward to? Then again, maybe its just a waiting game for the up swing! After what happened to your finger, I image I would have taken a nice long break, too.

  3. I really understand that statement made about alcohol. I was an alcoholic in my late teens, early 20’s, and for me, it’s easy to stay away from alcohol, even more after I was diagnosed with diabetes.

    But, whether we need it or not to thrive, we still have that choice. Instead of yes or no, we have the choice of what we WILL have.

    Last night was my first night at the gym since July. Getting back on track isn’t easy, but we just need to not give up on ourselves and know we’re worth it!

  4. Yes, yes, and yes!! It is such a mental thing! I went to the gym a grand total of 2 times in the month of September. And I didn’t smash my finger or do anything to prohibit myself from going to the gym – it was all my frame of mind.
    But, I found my mojo again, and you will too. It took revisiting my motivations, tracking my food, and taking it one day at a time, but I feel like I’m back in the groove I had when I first started this journey.
    I really love that quote you shared about food and non-food. It’s such a great way to think about healthy eating!!

  5. Ah yes, the swirly brain thing. Will it ever stop? I am tired.

    Its funny (hahahahahah–NOT) how fast we can get out of a habit, and how slow we get back into it. But one positive I have noticed. All my exercise has not gone to waste. Those muscles are still there. So that is good.

    And I’m glad you are not doing that blaming or shaming yourself thing (even though it was usually HILARIOUSLY FUNNY AND BROUGHT HOURS OF AMUSEMENT TO THE SCHNABEL HOUSEHOLD.)

    And I agree. Vickie’s FOOD vs. NON-FOOD description is frustratingly right on. Our last excuse has been de-bunked.

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  7. Gosh, I’ve missed you! I just read your last 3 posts & am laughing my butt off (wouldn’t it be wonderful if that really worked?!).

    I loved this post.

    Good for you for working out in jeans.

    & I’m getting old, too. I’ve had grey hairs for a while now, but I have blonde hair (thanks to haircolor) so it’s not that noticeable. I had a McD’s burger & fries happy meal the other night & had the worst gas & felt just awful. So I’m with you there, too. I will still wear uncomfortable shoes for fashion, though. I love me some heels!

    We’ll get our groove back, sister, we will!

    Love you!

  8. I love this!!!

    for me it’s like the “empty calorie” system… whats the best fuel my body needs right now?

    just getting tuned in!

    LOVE IT!

    stay with it! you’ll get there!

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