And by people, I really mean me.

Yes I know that people can change, but do they? I was having a bit of a down moment last night and I thought to myself, “Am I ever going to change? Am I ever going to be someone who doesn’t put off a work out until the last possible moment? Will I ever get my house organized and learn to tidy up everyday? Will I ever get ahead of the laundry? Will I ever get consistent in teaching my kids how to be responsible adults?”

This went on and on and on until I was convinced that I am just one big lazy mess.

I feel so overwhelmed sometimes by all the things that are expected of me, that I just get paralyzed and can’t do anything. And when you combine that with someone (me) who has very little self discipline anyway, the results are often disastrous (okay maybe not disastrous, but messy and inconvenient at least).

I love the way I feel after a work out, but it takes me 3 or 4 hours to talk myself into it. I wait to do laundry until someone complains that they are out of underwear, and then I spend all weekend trying to play catch up. I don’t mop my floors until they are so dirty that even I can’t stand it (and I can tolerate a lot). I put off buying groceries until there is nothing but a can of cranberry sauce and an old granola bar in the pantry. I don’t make my kids help out until I just can’t deal with it anymore and then I wonder why they can’t do anything for themselves!

Since I went back to work almost 3 years ago, it’s just been getting steadily worse, and I don’t know how to turn things around. I know my kids could help out a lot more, but I am not sure how to get them motivated. We tried the Handipoints thing for awhile, but then they started charging to use the best parts of the service, so the kids lost interest because I am not paying $12 a month just so they can dress up a cartoon cat. I have a hard time paying them a regular allowance, because honestly sometimes I just don’t have the money to pay them every week. And I’m not sure what they should be paid for and what should just be expected. I feel like I’m really cheating them out of some good learning opportunities, but I just don’t know how to get started.

I’ve tried the Fly Lady thing – I even have all my routines set up for morning, afternoon, and evening, but I don’t think I’ve ever actually done them. I could hire a cleaning lady to come in once a week, but I don’t think we could afford it – it would be one more expense that would stress me out.

How do you turn a procrastinator into a productive go-getter? How do you go from unorganized, messy, and lazy to “she’s got it all together”? I don’t even need it ALL together, but some sort of “together” would be nice!

I feel like my attitude towards food and exercise is like my attitude towards everything else in my life – I’ll just do the bare minimum of what needs to be done and hope it’s enough. Although I’m starting to see that it isn’t enough. I don’t want just the bare minimum anymore – I want the peace that comes with knowing I did my absolute best to get the job done. And I want to be consistent enough for it to become habit, so that I won’t have to have this burden on my shoulders anymore. But how do I make that happen?

So how do you all do it? How do you handle everything on your plate? Do you have routines that you stick to or are you like me and just wing it and hope it all gets done?