I ate a lot of cheese today. When I say I ate a lot of cheese today, what I really mean is I ATE A LOT OF CHEESE TODAY. I’ve never been good at eyeballing 1 oz of cheese, so I think I probably had 4 oz actually. It was mozzarella and it tasted really good with my apple, and it wasn’t a cookie or a piece of cake, so I’m going to call it good, cause that’s how I roll.

I may be pursuing another job soon. There’s nothing wrong with my current job, but it has recently come to my attention that I may not be realizing my full earning potential. I was lamenting to my sister the other day about how frustrated I get sometimes with work and she said, “I know you can find another job. You won’t have any trouble finding another job.” So I started looking around for jobs in my field and lo and behold, there are a few jobs out there that pay substantially better than what I make now, doing roughly the same type of work. When I re-entered the work force 2 ½ years ago, I really never thought I could do any better than $10/hour. My degree is unusual and I had only a couple years of experience, but I some how managed to luck into a job whose decent salary makes it worth going to work every day. And I thought that this position would be the best that I could hope for, but now that I know that I have the potential to make more, I’m going for it. I know that I can do the work and I am worth a higher salary – I just had to realize that I was worth it. All this thinking about my earning potential made me start thinking that maybe I have the potential to finally lose these 30 extra pounds of baby weight I have been carrying around for the last 12 years (note to self: I don’t think you can call it baby weight when that “baby” turns 12). Maybe I do have the potential to work out hard and make the tough choices when it comes to food.  But realizing that I can do it is often harder than the actual doing. Maybe I never believed that I could really do it. I’m still not sure I 100% believe that I can lose all of it, but I’m certainly going to explore this further. I think that this has been the thing that keeps me from going all the way and really working hard to lose the rest of the weight – I think I have been holding myself back, not really believing that I have great potential. I just need to learn to follow through on that and make it a reality.

So what’s holding you back? What is it that keeps you from going to full nine yards and making it happen? (“It” can be anything; it doesn’t have to be weight loss.)