The Monday Blues

So, the big family birthday party never happened on Saturday. My parents are in Galveston with my 93 year old grandpa who is not doing well. He is very sick and may not live much longer. The next time I see my mom’s number on the caller ID, I’ll know why, and I will not take the news well. I’m in total denial and just not thinking about it right now, because when it does happen, I’ll be a mess and I want to avoid that for as long as I can. If you pray, please say a prayer for me and my family. I would really appreciate it.

It’s probably a good thing that we didn’t have the big party, because then I’d be telling you right now about all the cake I ate and how miserable I am, but since there was no cake, there’s no remorse. But honestly, I still wish I’d had a cake for my birthday.

I’m noticing a lot of body image issues around the nets, and I’ve got a post about that brewing in my head, but I want to hear from you all first – do you have body image issues? If so, what are they? If not, how did you get past them? And if you have never ever had body image issues, I want to know what planet you are from and what the weather’s like there. TIA for your help and input!

Keeping it short and sweet today because I have a TON of work to do. Happy Monday everyone.

11 thoughts on “The Monday Blues

  1. My thoughts are with you. My 92 yr old grandmother passed away Christmas Eve and while it wasn’t a shock, it still was, if that makes sense. (((hugs)))

    Body image issues – don’t we all have them? I’ve always been super aware of my child-bearing hips and saddle bags. Thunder thighs. I also joke that I got my father’s legs and my mother’s height. But it’s the first thing I see on a bad day.

    How do I get past them? By dressing in clothes that flatter my body instead of trying to make my body fit trendy clothes. That way, when I look in the mirror, I look good and feel good.

  2. Sorry to hear about your grandpa. I’m keeping you and your family in my thoughts and prayers.

    I think we all have some sort of body image issues, and sadly, I think we as woman are just programmed to have them thanks to the media, etc. It took me a long time to just not pay attention to what the media and society says, and now I’m finally at a point where I am happy with my body.

  3. I’m so sorry to hear about your grandfather. I hope you are surrounded by friends and family at this time.

    As far as body image, mine has always been my stomach. I actually subconsciously cover it constantly, always checking myself from the side. Another issue is my neck. I had a double chin in my bigger/prego days and since losing weight, there are certain pics where it’s loose skin, and I hate it.

    I know for me looking good means feeling and looking healthy, so when I feel good about myself is when I’m staying positive about the progress I’ve made, and meeting my goals little by little.

  4. I’ve only met one woman who was completely comfortable with her body. I found your blog from Charlotte’s Great Fitness Experiment. I also gained a bunch of weight from “intuitive eating”-mostly that idea of forcing yourself to be ok with trigger foods. I’m very comfortable and happy not having potato chips or ice cream in the house, though I still eat them. I think what I do now is intuitive eating, my own style

    Sorry about your grandpa, it sounds like you have really enjoyed having him in your life for this long.

  5. Oh Jillie, I’m so sorry about your grandpa. I will keep all of you in my prayers.

    And no cake? Well, that’s just not fair.

    And yes, I have body image issues. But I will have to think about that. It’s too early in the morning…

  6. HUGS for your grandpa.

    Sorry your missed the cake!

    Just this morning I was thinking that if I could get a mid body transplant, I’d be happy. From the knees down & from the upper-chest up, I’m gorgeous baby! But all the middle parts are flabby, fat & disgusting. Hate them all. Even when I lose 15 pounds, they will still be flabby & yucky & I’ll always have saddle bags unless I get rich someday & have liposuction.

  7. Body Image: I have lots of bad thoughts about what I perceive my body to be. Shall I start from the head and work down?

    Hair falling out. Ears too itchy and piercings not even. A couple of eyebrow hairs grow the wrong way. Scar on forehead. Eyes too close together. Skin not flawless like it used to be. Permanent indentions from glasses. Bump on nose. Swollen bottom lip from accident 10 years ago. 3-4 extra chins. and on and on and on.

    I think it’s amazing that Hubby loves me and wants me even tho I look like I do. I’m not sure how to change my perception of what I look like. If you figure it out, let me know.

    Vee at

  8. So sorry to hear about your grandfather, Jill.

    Body Image: Well, I have always had issues about being a pear. I’ve always been small shouldered, small chested, and extra wide hipped, even when very, very thin. I think I felt ashamed about it for a long time…then I bumped into an old, old boyfriend who said something like, “You always had the greatest figure” or some such thing. It made me re-examine why I thought what I thought. I was buying into somebody else’s idea of what I should be.

    So now I’m fatter. And happier. Go figure.

  9. Dear Jill,

    I do pray. Fervently, actually. I will not only pray for your grandmother, but for your family as well. Please know that you have my sympathy and empathy as well.

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