I would like to tell you how great my eating has been and that I am kickboxing my way to the UFC title. I would like to tell you all that carbs no longer have a place in my life, and that all this working out is causing me to have abs, arms and buns of steel. I would like to tell you that I am practically perfect in every way possible…
But that would be a lie.
Why is it that when I post about being on track, the next day my train derails??? It’s like the Fates are coming at me wagging their fingers saying, “Ah ah ah…don’t tempt us, Jill.”
Last night as I pondered all my wrecked intentions, I came up with these questions:
Why do I think that eating will make an upset tummy feel better?
Why do I think that eating will give me energy when I am tired?
Why do I think that eating will boost my cranky stressed mood?
Why do I think that eating will get back at everyone who pissed me off?
WHY DO I HAVE SUCH A SCREWED UP VIEW OF EATING??????
I actually had a really great weekend, not that the tone of this post so far reflects that, but my little family spent the whole day Saturday at a spring-fed creek where the 65* water felt like heaven in the 105* heat!! I’m not kidding; we spent like 7 hours at this place and had the best time. We grilled hot dogs and had all the usual day-at-the-water type food. Even though I brought some good healthy options, I gave in and consumed 2 of those frosted soft sugar cookies and a bunch of Pringles chips. Of course I felt like crud afterward, but that didn’t stop me from ordering a dip cone from the local (and I’m not kidding about the name here) Pig-N-Out ice cream stand. It wasn’t even that good, but I ate every bit of it anyway. That brings me to another “why” – why do I think that something will taste better if I just keep eating it??? I’ve gotten better about this one, but it still creeps up on me from time to time.
Sunday we took out a second mortgage on the house in order to buy school supplies and back-to-school clothes for the two oldest kiddos. They start school in about 10 days, so I’m glad we got that out of the way. I don’t know why I am always so surprised at how much we spend on this stuff, but every year I am flabbergasted. I just kills me to have to buy things like batteries and tennis balls and Ziploc bags for school. (Insert cranky old man voice here) Back when I went to school all you needed was your cardboard cigar box and a Big Chief tablet and a pencil!! Maybe some Elmer’s glue and a box of crayons and you were good to go! My soon-to-be second grader had to have 48 pencils – FORTY-EIGHT!!!!! Good night, how much writing can an 8 year old do??? Is that one pencil for each week? But I digress…
Gets off soapbox…
Anyway, all that shopping must have triggered my binge button because I consumed every sugar-laden, carb-loaded snack I could find in that house. And I didn’t stop until all the stupid Froot Loop cereal straws were gone!! Those things are evil – way too addictive for me.
So, how to get the train back on track? I think I need to do some reading about emotional eating – that sometimes helps me shake me loose of the cycle. There is one book that I like by Linda Spangle called “Life is Hard, Food is Easy” that I like to re-read when I get all emotional-eaty. She’s got a grounded, real life view of why we eat emotionally and she even has some really good solutions as well. She has another book too called “100 Days of Weight Loss” that gives you tips and tricks to staying on your diet – whatever diet you may be on. I think I need to look that one over too.
So the plan for this week is to work out 4 days this week, and read my books and do the best I can. I also need to plan a menu for this week’s dinners – that really cuts back on my stress level if I don’t have to think about what’s for dinner. I’m also thinking of buying the Wonder Woman cuff bracelet – but not wearing it until I reach my goal. The more I think about it, the more I really want it!! If I wait until I reach my goal to buy it, I’ll end up not buying it at all, but if I get it now, I can dangle it in front of my face like a carrot. Super-extra motivation, if you will.
I hope you all had a great weekend, and if you are a regular lurker (my blog stats suggest far more people are reading than are commenting) please delurk to let me know how you handle a derailment in your eating/work out plans. Or even better, how do you stay consistent when life throws you a curve? Here’s your chance to put your 2 cents in.
Have a great Monday!!
ETA: sorry for the lack of linkage, but I’m feeling rather lazy today!