I Adora You

I eat two pieces of chocolate every day and I don’t feel one iota of guilt because it is good for me.  Everyday I have this:

 

Thompson Candy - Adora Calcium - Dark Chocolate, 30 pieces

 

 It is a calcium supplement disguised as a piece of really good dark chocolate. You don’t like dark              chocolate, you say?  Well, never fear, it also comes in milk chocolate, although I have never tasted that one, I’m sure it’s yummy.  I loooove good dark chocolate and I was really surprised at how good these are.  I have one after breakfast and one after dinner, and it really helps me with that “I just want one bite of something sweet” habit I have after dinner.  This is one supplement that I am oh so happy to take!!

 

In other news:  I had my weekly visit/weigh in with the doc yesterday and I have lost another 3.5 pounds, which brings me to a total of 20.5 pounds lost since February.  That’s also 12.5 pounds for this month alone, which concerns even me just a little bit, so last night instead of having a taco salad while everyone else had tacos, I decided I would splurge a little and have two tacos myself.  I don’t want to lose weight too fast because then I’m afraid that I won’t keep it off.  (I can’t believe I just typed that sentence – I’ve never been accused of losing weight too fast!!!)  But really, while I think 10 pounds per month is okay, 12 -15 may be a little much.  I think I’m going to relax just a tad and add a few carbs in here and there.  I’ve gotten into the habit of drinking tons of water, so I’m not sure I could cut back on that, and I have come to rely on my nightly walk for the endorphins, so I really don’t want to cut that out either.  I loves me some endorphins (and so does my family!).

 

I am at my halfway point now.  Another 20 pounds is my goal, and when (notice how I said “when”, not “if”?) I reach that, I’ll see if I want to go for another 10.  That would be ideal, but I’m not hanging all my hopes on that one.  I already feel so much better – I’m amazed at how much easier it is to move.  Little things like climbing up in the truck and getting up off the floor are so much easier now.

 

 Whoopie Goldberg did an HBO special like 20 or 30 years ago (it was one of her first I think), where she did a series of monologues. It is really brilliant, and if I can find a clip of it on YouTube, I’ll try to post it.  Anyway, one of her monologues was about a quadriplegic who is talking about her life.  She mentions that she has dreams, dreams where she is suddenly able to get up out of her wheelchair and walk. She can walk and move, and is amazed at how she can move her body in all sorts of different ways.  After being cramped up in her chair all her life, she can suddenly stretch and bend and dance and run, and she can feel every muscle in her body working.

 

This is how I am starting to feel.

 

I feel like I have been in a fat suit for the last 12 years, and I got so used to it, that I had forgotten what it feels like to really feel my body move.  When I run or walk, I am amazed at how my muscles are working and how running is easier than it was even 10 pounds ago.  When I started really trying to lose weight, it was all about how I looked. Now though, it is starting to balance out with how I feel.   Having clothes that fit again is great, but being able to run for longer stretches at a time feels far more superior.   I like that “free” feeling.  If I could dance, I would break out into a spontaneous interpretive dance! (A spontaneous interpretive two-step doesn’t quite cut it!) 

 

Okay, enough of that, here’s a little humor to start your weekend…

 

dog

 

 

           Have a great weekend everyone!  🙂

 

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5 thoughts on “I Adora You

  1. If the a few a day (one at a time) chocolate supplements work for you – more power to you. I am not suggesting that you stop taking them. Just wanted to make that clear before I said – I once ATE A WHOLE BAG OF THEM – over a few day stretch. I also did the same thing with WW chocolate “treats”. And obviously the 100 calorie bags too. If you are wondering what a whole bag of supplements did to me – not a thing – didn’t make me sick (unfortunately) and I didn’t grow any extra limbs or anything like that.

    The FAT SUIT feeling impacted me too. Mine had a big zipper and I have the feeling that I could just step out of it. This feeling stayed with ME all the way down to goal and then for quite a while after (while I worked harder on tone).

    And interestingly the feeling still comes back as I read certain blog postings. If the person has an injury or medical condition where it is obvious that getting rid of the extra weight would help – I have that “unzip the fat suit and step out of it feeling” it is like it is a real thing.

  2. Congrats on the loss!!! That is such great news. I think that finding something other than how you look or how your clothes fit as your key motivating factor-like running or moving more freely-is what makes weight loss stick.

    A little chocolate every day is a good thing. That’s one of the reasons I was successful on LAWL, b/c they built in the chocolate protein bar treats. I have some really good chocolate a few times a week, just a little bit (about 110 calories). It’s not a trigger food for me. But I can’t keep ice cream or cake in the house, b/c those are triggers for me. I guess it’s different for everyone.

    Keep up the great work!

  3. Great post Jill, and congratulations on your weight loss! It is a lot, and fast, but it seems like you are eating well, and learning to make new kinds of food, and ENJOYING exercise, so it seems like it will be okay. Just from my observation, myself and others, the faster the weight comes off, the more you have to work to keep it off, but its all okay, as long as it stays OVER THERE…in the corner…with all the old discarded fat suits.

    Your feeling about being in a fat suit, and your description of enjoying your body working well and moving freely…sometimes I say that people are in a prison and they don’t even realize it. Sometimes because they have lived that way so long that they don’t even know there is a different, better way to live. Of course there are lots of prisons that people put themselves into besides being overweight. Living in debt is the one I see a lot of. But there are so many overweight people with chronic pain that just don’t believe that weight loss will dramatically improve the quality of their life.

    Well, once again, my reply is bloggily incorrectly long! Have a great weekend!

  4. love what Debby wrote about the prison – and that is so true.

    I didn’t exercise at all – the first time I lost (nearly) all my weight (and then regained) and I think a big part of my regain – is that I didn’t HAVE all of those feelings.

    My trip down (and then up) was very quick.

    That time – I didn’t have the fat suit feeling.

    I didn’t agonise over my belly fat.

    I didn’t take note of all the Non-scale victories.

    I just thought – YIPPEEE – the weight is coming off.

    I think of that weight loss like a very fast elevator ride – where the elevator hit bottom and then bounced right back up.

    I just went into the living room to get a book off the top shelf. This involved taking off my slippers, putting my left foot on the window seat, and stepping the right foot up to counter top level and pulling the rest of me along with it.

    I stood barefoot on the counter top level cabinet – searched for my book on the top shelf (ceiling is 9 foot that room and shelf is tucked just below ceiling), found it – stepped back down to window seat – tucking my foot under the cushon (sp?) and stepped back down with my right foot all the way to the floor – and I NOTICED the ease in which I did it.

    I started yoga (and pilates) right at the beginning of this weight loss. It made me VERY body aware. It improved my strength, tone, posture and mindfulness. It taught me to quiet my mind. It is a big part of my maintenance.

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