Secret weight loss

For some odd reason, I don’t want anyone to know that I am on Weight Watchers again (I mean other than the 4 or 5 people who read this blog regularly, that is). The hubs knows of course, but I don’t talk to him about it. My mom and my sister don’t know, and usually they are the first to know everything, but for some reason, I just don’t want them to know. Isn’t that weird? I would really like to just quietly lose 30 or 40 pounds and be done with it.

I’ve got 3 theories to explain my disclosure phobia (big words for a Wednesday, huh?!):
1) If I talk about my weight loss, then I have to talk about how fat I am now, and that makes me uncomfortable. I am at my heaviest weight and I can’t believe that I have let it get to this. And speaking of uncomfortable, I am wearing a pair of size 14 jeans and they are KILLING me. They are so tight when I sit down that I have to unbutton them just to be able to breathe! Ugh!! But I digress…
2) I just don’t want the attention that losing weight seems to bring. When people know you are trying to lose weight, that’s the first thing they ask, “how much have you lost?” and really, there’s so much more going on in my life than that. Okay, really there isn’t anything going on in my life right now, but I just don’t want to talk about THAT.

3) I am being stupid and paranoid.

Any Freudian wannabes out there care to give it a shot? If you can diagnose my problem, then you win, well nothing, except my gratitude and respect. How’s that for incentive?!

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9 thoughts on “Secret weight loss

  1. You are not alone…I am doing the same thing. For the same reasons. I just want to quietly “melt” away.

  2. Hi again, congrats on your 2.2! I really enjoy reading your blog. I was the same way when I joined w.w. I think I didn’t want to tell anyone because I was pretty sure I would fail again, but also for all the reasons you listed above. I didn’t even tell my best friend ( who lives a state away) and still didn’t tell her when I went to visit her after being on w.w. for more than a month! I think I didn’t tell her for reason #1listed above. The funny thing is, I never thought she had a weight problem, but she is a w.w. now too, and one of my biggest supporters! As I write this, I know people will say, what kind of best friends are they that they couldn’t talk about this. Well, we are best friends with well-established boundaries, that respect each other’s boundaries most of the time. Anyways, enough about me, keep up the good work. You are an encouragement to me!

  3. It’s definitely NOT #4. And I think it’s probably a totally normal combination of 1, 2, & 3. When I started LA Weight Loss last year, I didn’t talk much about it to anyone but my blogging friends. Not even to my husband, at least not the finer details. And frankly, I think it helped that I could vent and celebrate with my blogging friends who UNDERSTOOD exactly what I was going through. People in “real life” don’t care and don’t want to know, really. Many of my family and friends are overweight–the last thing they want to hear about is what I’m doing to improve myself. Here in blog world, it’s the exact opposite. We all share in our successes and failures, and it’s a good thing.

    So you keep it to yourself. And when you’ve lost 30 pounds (because, trust me, people are blind and don’t notice you’ve lost weight until you are almost to goal) and people ask if you’ve lost weight and how did you do it, just smile and say “Yes I have, I’m eating less and moving more! So, how are your kids? BLAH BLAH BLAH.” Because, most people don’t want to know what it takes to get the job done. Someone might, just might, be seriously interested and want to know your “secret” but truly, I think most people just are in awe of anyone who loses weight because it’s so hard to do it themselves.

    I had one older lady at church ask me if I lost weight on purpose. Like maybe I had an illness or something that helped me lose weight. Then just last week, a sales guy I hadn’t seen for almost a year commented that I looked a lot thinner; I told him I’d lost 55 pounds and he said (I kid you not) “So are you all done?” I answered easily that I was holding steady for now–that it’s hard to lose weight in the winter time–but I wanted to lose another 10-15 pounds. Then later I just stewed and stewed on his insensitive comment. He is the NICEST guy, and totally didn’t mean it like it sounded, but it really honked me off.

    Anyway, share it all here. And you’ll get the support and encouragement you need, more than you’ll ever find in the real world (IMHO). And girlfriend, you are going to lose the weight. You will have bumps in the road, but you will succeed. Just keep at it and don’t give up.

  4. Welcome to diet hell friend.

    Or

    Welcome to normal.

    That is why I blog, so I don’t have to talk about dieting. Unfortunately, I do talk too much about how fat I am.

    When I lived in Tulsa, my sister shanghaied me to a WW meeting and paid for me to go 10 times. When I told the ladies at work I was doing WW, they immediately wanted to know how many points I could have, then insulted me by saying “THAT MUCH” with bugged eyes (I weighed 180 compared to their 140/150’s). So I don’t blame you for keeping it to yourself. You gotta do what you gotta do to stay motivated and best to not let others distract.

  5. I just cannot begin to tell you how much I appreciate each and every one of you – you guys are the best!!

    It means so much to me that you guys know EXACTLY what I am going through. It never ceases to amaze me that whenever I think I have some crazy thought in my head, you all are having the exact same thoughts (does that mean we are all crazy?!).

    Taylor – maybe we can melt away quietly together!!

    Dschnabel – I get you – I have a best friend like that too!!

    Laura – I can’t believe the sales guy said that!! That’s a weird random thing to say. And thanks so much for the encouragement – I really do appreciate you!

    Alicia – I feel ya on this. People can be so insensitive sometimes! And I’m the same way as you – I focus too much on how fat I am, but I feel like it affects everything else, so why wouldn’t I talk about it!

    Anyway, thanks to all of you for making me feel like I’m not crazy (or stupid and paranoid!). You guys rock!! =)

  6. This is why blogging is so great… I dont like to talk about it to my family either but they read my blog.. and I guess we have an unsaid agreement that they dont say anything if its not inspirational, positive or just plain nice! LOL

    I think the fact that we are on a diet is confirming the fact that we are fat.. and who the hell wants to admit to that?? LOL So we keep our diets to ourselves….. of course, I have found over the years that letting everyone know I am trying to get healthy actually helps me. First, it makes me liable . I cant show up at a family dinner and eat everything because that would only show that I am failing miserabley… and I dont like to let my family think that they were right from the beginning and that I will never be able to lose the weight. (yes, my family is full of mean and hateful people). Second, I meet wonderful people like you. Who else is better inspiration then someone who is going thru is right along side you??

    2.2 lbs is an amazing loss… keep it up!!

  7. Hey that is the winning attitude I tell you. I didn’t tell a soul of my weight loss efforts, and secretly behaved my way to an 85 lbs weight loss. I just didn’t want to jinx myself or have people expect things and ask me questions, etc. My online friends were the only one in on this, so you keep doing what makes you feel comfortable, there’s nothing wrong with it. take care,
    K.
    my blog: til-i-reach.com

  8. I’m a closet dieter too and don’t want all the attention and people asking things like “should you be eating that?” It is great to have so much support from blog friends who are dealing with the same things.

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