I think I must be searching for something. Today I came this close to purchasing two different online programs that promised to turn my life around. These two programs offered New! and Special! ways to make me a better, happier, fitter person. I almost bought into it – almost. Then I realized that if anyone is going to turn my life around, it has to be me. I know myself better than anyone else, so who better to guide Jill to a happier, fuller life than Jill herself? If my life is going to change, I am the one who has to change it. And let’s get real here, by my life I really mean my weight. I’ll be honest, the only thing I want to change is my weight – I love the hubs, my kids, my job, etc. Excess fat on my tushie is the only thing I don’t love in my life right now, but I am eating better and moving more, so hopefully that will take care of itself in the near future. Yeah, I’m on the right track, just gotta remember to stay on it.
I didn’t do W4D1 Tuesday night. For one, the kids were unusually demanding and the hub wasn’t home to help, and then there was the laundry and American Idol… anyone buying this so far? You want to know the real reason I didn’t run Tuesday night? I was scared. I was afraid that running for 5 whole minutes at a time would be too much for me and I didn’t want to fail. I have really enjoyed myself so far with C25K, and I didn’t want that feeling to end, so I made up excuse after excuse why I didn’t have time to run. I woke up Wednesday morning and I was really mad at myself for not doing it. I was really disappointed in myself for not even trying! Sooooo, last night I laced up my runners and I sucked it up and I did it!! I completed the entire work out and during my last 5 minute run, I found my rhythm and it was the just the BEST!!! I really honestly didn’t believe I could do it until I did it. Woohoo!! So now I am back on track and feeling really good about it, and I can’t wait to run again tomorrow. Hmmm, I wonder what else I can do that I think I can’t??