I am really struggling to find some balance in my life right now, especially in regards to food and weight. I joined SparkPeople and I really like it, but after reviewing the meal plan and food list, I have decided not to follow their meal plan. Mainly I don’t want to follow it because there are a lot of foods on there that I don’t like, such as asparagus, cucumbers, eggplant, and some of the meals are totally foreign to me. Here is what I really want out of a plan – I want to eat what I like, just less of it. Sounds like IE right? However when I tried to do IE wholeheartedly, all I wanted to eat was crap that made me feel awful and I never could stop when I was full. So that’s where the calorie counting came in. Can I learn to eat less of what I like by counting calories? Is there such a thing as intuitive dieting? I don’t know. I just know that I can’t keep going the way I have been – something’s gotta give.
So cranky today!! I snapped at a coworker for asking me what kind of sandwich I brought to work today. The thing is, he asks me EVERYDAY what I have brought for lunch. He has to dissect and inspect what I am eating for lunch every single day and frankly today I just couldn’t take it anymore. I literally opened up my sandwich and listed every single ingredient between those two pieces of bread, then I told him how many carrots I had with me, and I opened up my lunch sack and told him exactly what was inside there (yogurt and grapes), along with how many ounces of water I thought were left in my cup. He was dumbstruck. He said “sorry I didn’t mean to offend you” and hasn’t said another word to me all day long, which is fine. I don’t care what he brought for lunch, and neither does anyone else, so why why why must he know the contents of my lunch box everyday???? I think I need a nap or some chocolate or a good stiff drink. Or a nap. I’m such a biotch when I’m tired.