Shoulding all over myself

This feels different.

I feel different.

I feel like taking things slow and not stressing out about what I’m not doing or what I should be doing. I’m taking things at my own pace and I like it. In my past dieting life I thought:

• I should be eating only the cleanest, most natural, most wholesome foods (rarely did I accomplish this goal)

• I should be running 3-4 days a week

• I should be strength training 2 days per week

• I should do whatever everyone else tells me I should be doing in regard to health and weight loss

Folks, I’m tired of “shoulding” all over myself. I’m sick to death of the “shoulds” in my life – I think I lived by a lot of them and stepping away from them for awhile has been liberating. Since taking a step back, I have now realized that:

• I’m going to do the best I can where food is concerned. Most of my food issues are not intellectual issues, but emotional ones. These issues take time to deal with.

• I’m also going super slow where exercise is concerned. I’ve started with one yoga class per week. In a couple of weeks I’m going to add one Zumba class, so that will make two classes per week. After a month of that I’m going to add a day of walking – that will put me at 3 days per week. After that, I’ll add something else – when the time comes I’ll decide then.

• I’m going to hold off on the running because right now, I just don’t feel like it. Running feels like rushing things – I need to start off with walking for awhile. You have no idea how freeing it is to make this decision!

Karly’s program is a 12 session course. Normally, I would push myself to do one session per week in these kinds of things, but you know what? I’m going to take my time on this 3rd session because it’s about growth, and there are some things I want to mull around a bit before I move on to the next session. And for once, I’m totally okay with “not staying on track”.

So far, I really like taking things slow. Honestly, it might take me a year to figure all this out. Heck it might take me 3 years or 5 years or 10 years. That’s okay! As long as I am growing and moving in a direction that makes me happy and healthy, I can live with that.

Slow and steady, ya know? Also it looks like this turtle is doing the up dog yoga pose!

How do you “should” all over yourself? (thanks to Karly for introducing me to this phrase!!)

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3 thoughts on “Shoulding all over myself

  1. Love the turtle doing yoga.

    And I’m with you on the emotional stuff taking time. After all this time, and changing the way I eat completely, I am still dealing with the emotional stuff. Now more than ever. And it took a long time to establish the emotional stuff, it took even longer for me to admit to it, and then even longer to figure out what it was. Now that I know what it was, it doesn’t really make me want to eat less when I am stressed. Its just easier to eat, and it does comfort me and calm me down some. Not saying I’m giving up or giving in. Just that I’m with you. Its just gonna take time.

  2. How did you get my picture?

    There are so many things I think I “should” do but I’m learning to focus on the things I am doing and make the best of it. Shoulda, coulda, woulda ….

    Have a great weekend!

  3. I think I’ve added the pressure of being “fit by 42,” which is Jan. 5, 2011 — meaning, “I SHOULD be more fit than I am right now” if I’m going to make that goal.

    Sometimes I say to myself, “I SHOULD be blogging; people are going to think I’ve given up or that I don’t support them anymore if I don’t.”

    I hope to trade in my “shoulds” with “want to’s.”

    Clever title. :)

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