Moving Forward

This has been kind of a tough week. This has also been the week of nonstop chocolate. Chocolate candy bars, chocolate cake, chocolate ice cream…All chocolate All the time.


I’m scared.


One of my supervisors, whom I adore by the way, uses the phrase “moving forward” a lot, as in “Moving forward, let’s get those reports in before the end of the month” or “I know we did it that way in the past, but moving forward, I would like it to be done this way.”  I’ve heard Vicki say several times that she stops reading bloggers who aren’t moving forward in regards to making healthy changes.  This phrase – moving forward – has been plaguing me all week.  It’s like a short commercial jingle that gets stuck in your head – all day long you’re singing “Byyyyy Mennen” (thank you Jerry Seinfeld) or something like that.  It’s almost as if my gut is telling me, “You need to think about this and decide if you want to move forward or backward” because lately my actions are mimicking the actions of two years ago when I gained 25 pounds in a short amount of time.


I don’t want to go back there. It’s a dark and scary place.


I was watching Oprah yesterday and Suzanne Somers was on talking about hormones and menopause and such and she mentioned something about “it’s the quality of our lives we’re talking about here”. That phrase struck me and as I stood there in front of the television, I thought to myself, “my quality of life right now sucks.  I’m tired, I’m bitchy, and I feel like crud.  I don’t want to this to be the quality of my life.”  I realized that what I have been eating lately has everything to do with how I feel.  If I eat crap, I’m going to feel like crap.  What’s so frustrating is that I KNOW THIS. I’ve known it for two years now, but how many times do I have go through this before I finally get it???  How long do I have to keep beating my head against a wall before I can stop myself and say “if I beat my head against this wall I’m going to have a headache – I should probably stop doing that”????  That’s what moving forward means to me: not only recognizing that I can’t eat junk all the time,  but also having the presence of mind to say, ‘don’t even start – you know where this road leads” whenever I think junk will make it all better.

I know we all have slip ups, and I’m not talking about those times when you want a brownie because your friend is having one. I’m talking about having a brownie (or two or three) everyday for a week (or a month) because you just don’t give a damn and everything else is so hard, and “why shouldn’t I have one – it’s been a hard week and I deserve it”.  Then I finally regain consciousness and am so pissed at myself for once again going down the road to sugar hell and having nothing but a few extra pounds to show for it.  When will I get it that this is FOR LIFE?  Living a healthy, active life does not include plowing through a bag of Doritos, washing it down with a milkshake, and having a Snickers chaser every time you have a bad day!!!  I’ve even come up with a term for this behavior: destructive eating.  It destroys what I have worked so hard to build up – my weight loss, my self esteem, my confidence, all in the space of a few days.

I decided last night that I’m done with the destructive eating.  The weather is supposed to be very nice this weekend and I hope to get in a run and, God-willing, my Jillian Michaels dvd will be delivered.  I know that a good workout or two will do wonders for my attitude and my appetite.  I don’t want to slide backwards or stay stuck where I am right now.  I want to move forward.  I want to keep moving forward.

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Get your shred on

Okay well I still haven’t received my Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred DVD yet, but let’s go ahead and set a start date for the Shred Challenge. We will start on Monday Feb 2nd (which is also my niece, Krysten’s birthday – Hi Krysten!!) and here are the guidelines for the Challenge:

• Do the Shred dvd at least 3 times a week. If you can do more great, if you can do it every day for 30 days, you are a workout SupahStar and deserve a parade in your honor (doesn’t mean you’ll get one, but you sure deserve one!!).

• Check in on my blog every Monday to post the previous weeks number of workouts. We are working on the honor system here, people, so don’t post a number like 56 workouts in a week or I’ll…um…be slightly suspicious. (I can’t think of a good “or else!” threat right now)

• At the end of 30 days (March 3) whoever has the most workouts completed will win a prize. I have no idea what the prize is yet, but I’ll try to make it something good. If you have any ideas, feel free to share.  If there needs to be a 2nd and 3rd place prize, we could work that out too.
Here’s a list of people who have said they want to participate:

Doc Manette
White Flower
Jill (me)

There’s still time to join, so send me an email or just leave a comment on this post and I’ll add your name to the list.

Happy Shredding gang!!


ETA:  if you haven’t received your DVD by Saturday, let me know (I got your comment Gemfit), and if we have to we can always push the start date to Feb 9th.   I want everyone to have a chance to get in on this.  ;)

A little ticked

Ten days (exactly) before my TOM, I turn into a raging biotch.  Add to that a really stressful day at work, plus the Jillian’s no show in my mailbox equals a really cranky me tonight.  

I stopped at the convenience store on the way home and bought 4 candy bars.  I ate two of them in the car.  Do you know how long it has been since I ate full size candy bars?  Longer than I can remember.  But today was one of THOSE days and I caved. 

Did it help?  Sort of, for a minute.  But now I”m still in a super cranky mood AND I’ve 500 cranky calories that I need to burn, but for some reason I STILL DON’T HAVE MY 30 DAY SHRED DVD.  This is starting to get annoying.  What up wif dat Amazon?

Oh, and did I mention I”m getting a cold?  Yeah, cause I need one more thing to piss me off! 


Tomorrow is another day.   I don’t know if that is a good thing or a bad thing. 

Pity me.

Ice Storm Revisited

I’m sitting here in my sweatshirt and track pants and fuzzy socks because I am not at work today.  Today I am blogging from home due to the inch of ice and sleet covering EVERYTHING.   Schools are closed, businesses are closed, and thankfully, my place of employment is closed as well.   The power is still on (knock wood) so the family and I are just hanging out.  I really hope this ice storm isn’t as bad as the last one.  Don’t think I could handle multiple days of no power again. 

Here’s the view from my front porch – no that’s not snow, it’s ICE. 




We took pity on the poor birds and threw some birdseed out to them…

Eat it up birdie!

Eat it up birdie!


Today is one of those days where you just want to snuggle up under a blanket and watch movies and eat all day long, but I’m determined to NOT do that.  I’ve got Cardio Blast on FitTV coming on at 4pm today and of course there’s always the laundry to be done.  I may even clean out a closet if I get super motivated.  I want to keep busy today and keep my mind off of snacking and noshing and munching.  I really hoped Jillian would be waiting for me when I came home yesterday, but alas, there was no 30 Day Shred in my mailbox, but I’m sure I can find plenty of other things to do to keep me moving. 

I may be home tomorrow too (and possibly the day after that), so I’m sure you will see another post from me then (if I can beat my kids to the computer!).   Have a good day everyone!

Attention! May I have your attention please!

I”m interrupting your Saturday for an important announcement! 

Today I ran outside.  

Let me repeat that again.


For those of you who don’t quite understand the awesomeness of this, let me clarify:  this girl who ran outside in subfreezing temperatures today is the same girl who shivers when it’s 70degrees outside.  This is the girl who sleeps with socks on underneath 3 blankets.  Now do you see why this is cause for celebration???!!!

Today I made that decision that I was  going to run, somehow, somewhere come hell or high water.   It’s cold today, but the sun is out and the wind wasn’t blowing too hard. I decided that I would try to run in the local park, which has a good trail, or if I couldn’t handle the cold I would run at the rec center.  I wore some tights, my track pants, a tee shirt, a long sleeve tee shirt, a light jacket, and a heavy fleece jacket over all that.  I had on my headband that covers my ears, a hat, and gloves.  The only thing that got cold was my face, but when I wasn’t running into the wind, it was fine.   It’s a half-mile trail and I probably walked more than I ran, but the great thing was that there was no one else there – we had the park all to ourselves: me, David Cook, and about fifty thousand geese.  I had to watch out for the droppings, but they mostly concentrated at the east end of the trail, so that was okay. 

It.  Was.  Awesome.

I’m not exactly sure how many times I went around the park – maybe 5 or 6, so that would be about 3 miles, right?  Of those three miles I probably walked a little over half, but that’s okay.  Just the fact that I got out there was a small personal victory. 

So in conclusion, I pretty much rock today.  I have a new place to run and plenty of gear to keep me warm.  Could this be the year that I become a bona fide runner?????   I hope so. 


You may now return to your regularly scheduled Saturday.   :)

Blog Tour: The Baby Fat Diet

Hey gang! 


I discovered a great little book last week (and when I say discovered, I mean I was asked by the very nice Tina of BlogTourSpot to read it) and I wanted to share it with you all because most of the people who read my blog are very interested in not only losing weight, but in finding a balance in our busy lives.  The book is called The Baby Fat Diet and the authors are Monica Bearden and Shara Aaron, both of whom are registered dieticians and busy moms.  They have put together an easy to read guide on balancing a healthy lifestyle with the crazy, ever-changing, always demanding lifestyle of a mom.  But here’s what I discovered:  this book is great for anyone who wants to learn how to eat a balanced diet and fit exercise into their life. 

I will admit that I didn’t have any expectations of this book before I read it.  I thought, “What are they going to tell me that I haven’t already heard eleventy million times before?”  But just looking through the table of contents, I found myself saying, “Oh, I’ve been wondering about that” and “Oooh that should be a good chapter”.   The chapters cover things like vitamins and supplements, organic foods, who to believe when it comes to nutritional studies, avoiding fad diets, eating at night, and getting your family in on the healthy action.  There are 35 chapters in this book and most of them are about 5 pages long, so you can pick a chapter and read it in just a few minutes, because let’s face it, that’s about all the time moms have to read anything!  The authors (hereafter refered to as the BFG’s – Baby Fat Girls) designed this book so that the reader can make small changes at a time, a big lifestyle overhaul is not necessary and I, for one, appreciate that aspect of it. 

I think what I liked most about this book is that the BFGs answered a lot of my general questions about health and nutrition.   They answered questions about omega 3′s, how to read a nutrition label,  which nuts are the best to include in a healthy diet (all of them!), and what to eat when it’s 9pm and the cravings won’t go away.  It’s a simple, straightforward guide to help you sort through the confusion about what eating a healthy balanced diet really means. 

But like I said before, don’t let the title fool you – even if  your babies haven’t been babies for years or if you’ve never had kids, this is still a very handy resource to have around and definitely worth the time it takes to read – which isn’t very long at all unless you are like me and have to do your reading in short segments during your “alone time” in the bathroom.  ;)

The BFGs also have a great website and a blog (we all love a good blog, don’t we?!) that I have found to be interesting and funny.  These are real women, real moms who are in the trenches with the rest of us, fighting the battle for healthier bodies.  Go check out the website and tell them The Sassy Pear sent you!

Here’s where you can find the website:

Here’s where you can find the blog:

Here’s where you can buy the book:

And here’s a list of other stops on the blog tour:


HERE’S THE BEST PART!!!  If you are still reading, then you deserve a prize!  One lucky commenter will receive a free copy of The Baby Fat Diet of their very own.  How cool is that?!  So leave a comment on this post by midnight January 25th (that’s Sunday) and the winner will be announced January 26th, and no I’m not giving away my copy – I’ve already made too many notes and dog-eared too many pages to give mine away.  The give-away copy will be shiny and new,  okay?!

Shred that Crappie!

Okay – now I know why no one answered my crappie question!  Debby’s comment made things so clear to me.  For starters, it’s not pronounced CRAPpie, it’s krah-pee, although writing that out doesn’t make the fish seem any more appetizing.  It has a very mild flavor and is not fishy-tasting at all.  Go to (yes this fish has its very own website) for more information. Secondly, it never occured to me that everyone might not know about crappie.  Growing up, the only fish we ever ate was crappie, bass, or catfish and all could be prepared the same way – fried.  Maybe crappie is a regional fish or it’s known by another name in other parts of the country.   Anyway, thanks Debby for enlightening me – you always make me laugh!!


I just ordered the 30 Day Shred DVD from Amazon (it’s less than $9 right now) and I know Laura is going to be doing it, but is there anyone else out there who would like to join in?  We could start it either the end of next week or the first of February.  Eileen has expressed an interest (c’mon Eileen you know want to!!) and if there is anyone else who wants to join in the fun, leave me a comment or shoot me an email.  If we get enough interest, we could have a drawing for a prize at the end.  Wouldn’t that be fun?  Come on, all the cool kids are doing it!!


There’s a new diet book making the rounds called The Baby Fat Diet, and The Sassy Pear is one of many stops on the book’s blog tour.  I’ve read the book and I’ll be posting my review on Friday, so please before you make any judgments (another diet book? Are you kidding, Jill?) stop by and read my review – I think you’ll be surprised!


Have a great day gang!!


Bonjour Mes Amies!! 

I like to throw in a little French every now and then just so I can prove to my dad that college education wasn’t a waste of time.  I mean, all the life lessons I learned – how to properly pour a beer,  how to thrive on Hideaway Pizza, Cocoa Puffs, and Spaghettios,  how make one load of laundry last two weeks – were totally worth the thousands and thousands of dollars spent.  And oh yeah, that little bit of French I learned is SO valuable here in Oklahoma (that was sarcasm in case you didn’t catch that).  If I had it to do over again, I would have majored in something fun like Theater, or Graphic Design, or something useful like Health and Nutrition, because I am all about health and nutrition these days (see? There was a point to all that rambling about college!).  Part of the reason I love January is that all of North America is on the Healthy Bandwagon – everyone is vowing to eat right and exercise…at least until Valentine’s Day.  But you, dear readers, and I will have butt-prints embedded on that bandwagon because we are in it for the long haul, no? Bien sur!  We are on a quest for good health and though we may falter at times, we always,  ALWAYS pick ourselves up and keep moving forward.  Just remember that when your someone special wants to take you out for a big steak dinner and dessert on Valentine’s Day.  ;)

On Saturday I got so fed up at the lack of good food in the house, I went to Wal-Mart and spent an obscene amount of money on all the healthy foods I could think of.  I bought lots of veggies, lots of fruits, yogurt, string cheese, cottage cheese, whole wheat flour, whey protein, and lots of other yummy good-for-you stuff.  I can’t tell you how much better I feel just after 3 days of eating non-crap.  I do have a question for those of you in the know – I know that it is recommended to eat fish at least a couple times a week, but does freshwater fish like Crappie and Bass count?  Do they have the same omega-3s that other fish have?  Since I am married to Daniel Boone, we have LOTS of crappie in the freezer, and since we almost always fry it, I rarely fix it anymore (fried foods like that make my stomach hurt).  But we have all this fish at our disposal and if we could get some benefit out of it by baking it or grilling it, I would definitely prepare it more often.  A quick Google search didn’t turn up much.  I did find one article that said Crappie is nutritious, and it touted the benefits of omega 3 acids but it didn’t directly link Crappie with omega 3′s.  It did say however, that crappie tend to not absorb a lot of the contaminates in freshwater like say, catfish.  So that’s good news, but I want to know just how nutritious Crappie is.  If you know, could you enlighten me?  DB would be thrilled if we ate fish more often, even if it isn’t fried.

On the fitness front, I am in mourning over the death of my treadmill (yes STILL).  Gilad is great for strength training, but I don’t really work up much of a sweat.  I need more than 18 minutes of activity to really work up a good sweat.  I stumbled upon this yesterday and it looks like it might be a good set up.  For $20 a month, you get a new workout custom made for you every 4 weeks.  It includes a personal trainer DVD, a cardio DVD and a strength training DVD I think.  It’s a good price and I like that you get a new one every month for 20 months.  Anyone ever tried this?  I just worry that I won’t like the cardio (visions of Denise Austin dance in my head) and so I wouldn’t do it.  I am really tempted to do this, but with the money I would spend on this, I could just go out and buy a treadmill.  I think that’s one of my faults – I overanalyze and worry that if I spend the dough, I’ll be sorry later.  I’m going to overanalyze it a little bit more and then I’ll decide.

Today’s shout out goes to the avocado.  It all started with guacamole, which I love probably a little too much, and now my latest obsession has turned to eating avocadoes raw, right out of the skin.  It’s so creamy and indulgent, and I love it.  I try to keep it to a quarter or half an avocado at a time, but I could see myself eating two or three a day. Pretty soon you may see me entering avocado rehab.  J’adore l’avocat!  See Dad, I’m using my French degree!!

Have a good day kids!


PS.  I almost forgot!  Check back later this week for a book review (not the Toxic Fat book, a different one) AND a giveaway!!   Woo!!