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A 40-something woman trying to lose 40-something pounds

Monthly Archives: July 2008

Now that July is coming to a close, I can finally focus on shedding some more weight.  It was nice to just sit at my current weight and get comfy with it, and I have learned some things from that.  I learned that just 20 pounds can make a huge difference in how I see and feel about myself, which translates into how I present myself to other people.  I am more relaxed and confident now than I was 6 months ago.  Also I realize that the way I’ve been eating (more protein/less carbs) is becoming easier and makes me feel good.  It’s so much easier to get back on track now that I know what my body needs.  A detour is nice for a short time, but if I stay on that detour, I feel run down and bloated.  The way I get back on track is to just be mindful of the choices I’m making.  Being conscious of the kinds of foods I am eating makes a huge difference in whether or not I’m losing weight. 

 

And here’s something else I have learned over the last month:  the diet pills* don’t make me lose weight.  Wait a minute… what?   Isn’t that what diet pills are supposed to do?  That’s what I thought too, but what I have discovered is that they help me to NOT gain weight.  They take the edge off of the munchies, but that’s about it.  And for me that’s still pretty big, because the munchies can take over my life if I let them, but I’m kind of glad that even though I have been taking them faithfully, I haven’t lost any weight this month.  The weight that has come off, has been through good old fashioned diet and exercise. 

 

I started again this week with being more mindful of what and how much I am eating – limiting my snacks to nuts and string cheese or fruit, and I also started working out again.  I ordered this because she recommends it, and who am I to argue with royalty?  When I got the DVD, I watched it all the way through first just to get an idea of what it was all about because I have never kicked or boxed, let alone a combination of the two.  Then I got brave and tried it.  OH MY GOSH IT WAS SO MUCH FUN!!!   I think I have found my inner Grrr with this.  I’m still not terribly quick on my feet, but who knew I could kick like that???  It was an awesome and fun workout and I have done it 3 times already this week.  Even though I am in my air conditioned living room, I still end up totally sweaty and out of breath – I love it!!  So that brings my work out arsenal to two: walking and kickboxing.  Look out, I may just start up the new A Team with my newfound abilities – all I need is a white van and Mr. T and we can fight crime all over the world!  I might also need this – hey it’s my crime fighting team, I can accessorize however I want!!

 

Anyway, back to getting back into the groove, yeah it’s going well.  I weigh in at the doc’s this afternoon, so I hope to show a little loss.  If not, that’s okay; I know the working out will catch up soon.  Either way I’ll look awesome in my bullet proof bracelet!

 

 

 

 

*in case you are just tuning in, these are not over the counter diet pills.  They are doctor-prescribed and carefully monitored on a weekly basis by the Nurse Nazi.  Yes, I’m being careful; no I haven’t had any ill side effects.  Thanks for your concern.  Really, I mean that.

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Hey guys!!   I”m still here, just supremely busy!  I’ll try to have a real post in the next couple of days – don’t forget about me!!!  :)


Confession time:  I have not lost any weight the entire month of July.  I haven’t gained, but I have not actively pursued weight loss for the last 4 weeks.  Eating has been evenly keeled for the most part, with a few binges here and there, but nothing that made me cry when I stepped on the scale the next day.  I have walked maybe 5-7 days out of the whole month.  Granted this has been a really busy month for me – if I wasn’t gone somewhere, I was getting ready to be gone somewhere, so that contributed somewhat to my lack of walkage. 

 

 

But the real reason I haven’t lost any weight? 

 

 

I kinda like how I look right now. 

 

 

I’m happy with what I see in the mirror, and so the motivating disgust hasn’t been there to propel me forward in actively trying to shed the fat. 

 

 

Yeah, it is kinda cool. And weird.

 

 

I can finally wear the clothes hanging in my closet that for the past couple of years were just waiting for their turn.  I can finally go shopping and try on clothes and NOT dissolve into tears at Jabba the Hut staring back at me from the dressing room mirror.  I can go to a business meeting and take comfort in the fact that I am not the biggest girl in the room anymore.  I can lie on my bed in my Elvis t-shirt and not freak out and try to hide my thighs under the covers when the hubs walks into the room.  We even made a game of tracing the veins on my thighs last night (not that kind of game, you perv!!), and it was liberating to just be comfortable in my skin.

 

 

Let me make something really clear here:  I am still overweight.  At 5’4”, 165 pounds still shows up all over my pear-shaped body in unnatural ways.  I still have about 20 more pounds to lose, and really if I want to be at  my Perfect Happiest Weight Ever!!!, I”ll need to lose another 15 on top of that. My doctor wants my blood pressure to be a little bit lower, and there are some areas I’d like to tone up, so I’m far from “done”. 

 

 

But for now, I’m good.  As soon as this crazy month is over, I’ll get back to walking and being vigilant about my eating, because I know how easily the weight I’ve lost can come back and take up residence in my thunder thighs.  Yeah, I still have thunder thighs and oddly enough, I’m okay with them too right now.  All my crooked, lumpy, bumpy body parts and I are at peace for the moment.

 

 

 It’s a strange and wonderful feeling that I hope lasts for more than a day.   :)

 

 


  • The warm fuzziness of your daughter’s Barbie Fairytopia movie makes you cry
  • one minute you love your husband so much that it takes your breath away, and the next minute he’s an insensitive jackass who should know EXACTLY why he made you madder than a wet hen and don’t tell me not to get upset! You’re the reason I’m upset so you should do something to make me feel better you insensitive jackass!!!
  • spilling your coffee makes you cry
  • the ice cream in the freezer that you have managed to avoid for the last 3 weeks is suddenly the most precious thing on earth to you and you must have it NOW.
  • a fudgesicle, a brownie, and 3 handfuls of chocolate chips are not enough chocolate to tame the savage beast within.
  • you start to wonder if pouring syrup on unsweetened baking chocolate would do the trick.
  •  a sink full of dirty dishes makes you cry
  • your skinny jeans that you slaved and sweated to fit into can not be zipped without your being horizontal
  • flat lifeless hair makes you cry
  • crying makes you cry and you don’t even know why you started crying in the first place you just know that you can’t stop and really you don’t want to stop because it does make you feel a little bit better but now your makeup is running and so now you have do your make up ALL over again and the thought of having to do that just makes you cry more
  • suddenly every moron with a driver’s license is in front of you and apparently THEY DON’T REALIZE THAT YES, YOU CAN TURN RIGHT ON RED AFTER YOU STOP.  MOVE IT YOU IDIOT!!!!
  • the most beautiful word in the English language is Midol

I’m going to be busy for the next few days so I won’t be around much until the middle of next week.  Have to go on a short biz trip to Houston, but I’ll catch up with you all when I get back. 

Be good!!  =)

In the meantime, here’s a little something to entertain you:

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Have fun!



You Are an Orange Margarita


At first glance, you are very unique – but deep down you are still quite a traditionalist.A margarita may be “too fancy” for you, but you’ll never turn a free one down.


Hey gang!

 

Been trying to play catch up at work, and catch up with sleep – I have been wiped out since coming back from our short vacation.  Sleeping in until 8:00 for four days makes getting up at 5:30am really really difficult! 

 

Working out this week has been a non-event.  I’m just so wiped out after work, that it’s all I can do to make dinner and go to bed, so I’ve given myself a break this week from the walking and what-not until I feel like I’m caught up on some rest.  I’ll start walking again this weekend.  I’m also thinking of ordering a kick boxing dvd, something to do when it’s just too damn hot to walk on the treadmill in the garage.  And lately it’s just been too damn hot.

 

Food- well I think I’m doing okay considering the cupboards are bare in my home.  I hate grocery shopping because a) it just takes so long and b) it costs so much now.  I hate spending all my money on groceries, but I like to eat, so I guess I’ll have to bite the bullet and go to the store after work.  Yuck.

 

I’ve maintained my weight for the past month, so I think I’m ready to get back in the groove and lose some more.  Losing 12 pounds in one month kind of scared me a bit, so I have been just working on maintaining, but it’s time to get back in the saddle. 

 

I told Debby and Laura that I’d be doing the push up challenge that is popping up all over the internet, but I have yet to do my initial test.  Honestly, I’ll be amazed if I can do 5 push ups.  I need to put a note on the fridge so I won’t forget to do it, because that’s the only reason I haven’t started it yet – I keep forgetting!  I’ll make myself a note to make myself a note to remember to not forget to do that thing that I keep forgetting to do.  Or maybe I’ll just set up a reminder on my phone – that way it will keep beeping at me until I do it!  Okay, that’s what I’ll do. 

 

Off to play with my phone alerts!!

 

Have a great day y’all!


    

Hey Friends!  I’m back.  It was a great mini-vacation, so great that I didn’t want to get up and come to work this morning, but here I am, me and all 12 of my mosquito bites!  I hope you all had a good bug-free weekend.

 

I won’t rehash the entire vacation for you all, but there was a lot of swimming, walking, and sitting on the deck watching the deer.  Our cabin was situated right along the edge of the woods and you could see deer, squirrels, and we even heard a pack of coyotes howling that sounded like they were just a few yards away!  It was so peaceful and quiet and I loved every minute of it.  I don’t know what it is about being in nature that makes your soul feel nurtured, but I need to find a way to incorporate that feeling into my everyday life.  I’m thinking that a little less TV and a little more outdoor time would be beneficial.  I even brought up the subject of discontinuing our satellite service, but I’m not sure how well received that would be among the hubs and kiddos. I could live with out it easy (especially since fave shows come on local TV channels). 

 

On Saturday we took a short drive to War Eagle Cavern where we got to go on a guided tour of the cave there.  It was really interesting and the surrounding scenery was so beautiful.  My son loved the cave tour and the girls loved the swings they had there.  There was a maze you could go through, but by the time we finished with the cave tour, we were all a little tired, so we skipped that part, but I think it would be fun.  (Trying to post some pics, but having a little trouble.  Will try to put them in another post soon. )

I did okay food-wise.  I stocked up on lots of healthy goodies (greek yogurt and walnuts, strawberries and blueberries, Kashi crackers and hummus – yum!), so I had plenty of good snacks, and we did a fair amount of walking and swimming at the pool, so I did okay.  The only thing I didn’t do well was drink my water, which is odd because usually I have to have it around at all times.  I showed a 3 pound gain this morning, but I am okay with that.   I attribute that to my lack of water, and no major cardio for 5 days (and the margaritas Friday night probably didn’t help much either!).  I think I can lose those 3 pounds this week just by guzzling my water and getting in a few good walks on the treadmill. 

 

So now it’s back to the grind, and everyday life.  There are four weeks left until school starts again, so I want to make the most of the rest of the summer.  I’d like to go visit my sister and her gigantic pool before school starts, and I’m trying to put together a surprise party for the hubs’ 40th birthday at the end of this month.  Still have lots more to do before this summer is over! 

 

I’m glad to be back – I missed you guys!!  =)

 

 

 


Hey everyone!  Just a quick post to say “au revoir” for a few days.  Headed to the lake for the rest of the week for a teeny tiny vacation.  I’ll be back all tanned and happy on Monday! 

You all behave while I’m gone!  =)


Wow I am a rock star in the weight loss world!!  Man, I am on fire!!  After my “I did so great all weekend long” post yesterday, I went home and used my super powers to make two (not one, but two) mini cupcakes disappear!  And then I did a perfect swan dive into a pan of brownies, whereupon I won the 500 meter freestyle!  Oh yeah baby – I’M HOT!!  And because I go ALL THE WAY,  I topped that off with a quarter of a giant Hershey bar.  Not a regular size Hershey bar, not even a King size Hershey bar, the kind of Hershey bar that Godzilla would look at and say, “Whoa man! I can’t eat all that!!”  Yeah, THAT size Hershey bar.  I only ate a quarter of it, but hell a quarter of that is like eating a regular size Hershey bar, so that’s really not saying much!  Oh, and just to prove what a Super Nova I am, I also polished off the last cup of Cinnamon Toast Crunch in the box – no milk (because that would mean I might get some nutrients, heaven forbid!!), just the cinnamon crunchy goodness all by itself.  I then spontaneously turned into BloatGirl, whose super power is sitting for an hour watching Oprah while rubbing her distended belly and moaning, all the while wondering if there was anything else left in the kitchen.

I still have no idea what brought all that carnage on.   Usually when I binge like that, there is a reason, but this time  – I got nothin.  Don’t know. Don’t really care. What’s done is done, and I’ll pay my penance on the treadmill this afternoon.  Let’s just hope it doesn’t happen again anytime soon…although there is still 3/4 of a Hershey bar lurking in my cupboard.



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