Take me to your leader

I went to a different WW meeting than I usually go to and can I tell ya – WOW!! What a difference!! At my usual location, the leader* is nice- she is in her mid 60′s and kinda funny in an “I’m trying really hard to be funny” kind of way. The room where the meeting is held is very large and there are usually only about 15 people there and everyone sits in the back. No one feels very comfortable talking so it’s usually quiet. Not very motivating to say the least. And there is one receptionist who is…well… she’s just plain weird! I don’t know how else to put it. She is one odd duck. Plus, Tuesdays are hard days for me to go because my son plays baseball EVERY TUESDAY AND THURSDAY FOR THE NEXT 3 MONTHS, *sigh*, so I don’t always make it to the meeting, or if I do, it is because I have to move heaven and earth to get there. So I decided to try a meeting in a nearby town (I live right in between two smallish towns) that is only 10 minutes away from my house.

 

LOVE. IT.

The leader, can I just take a minute to tell you how awesome she is??? She is in her late 40′s, tall, long dark hair with a style that I covet, and totally cool! Think Cher, but in a good way. She had on these very cool wedge heels and lots of silver bangle bracelets and glasses that made her look smart yet aloof. She was very laid back, but really into what everyone had to say. Very engaging. I think I may have just the slightest hint of a girl crush on her!

The members of the meeting were very chatty and offered suggestions and it made the class that much more interesting. There was one overbearing, obnoxious woman who had to comment loudly about everything, but there’s always one, isn’t there?! Other than that I really enjoyed the meeting and will definitely be making this my permanent meeting location. I left there feeling motivated and ready to put all my effort into it. Such a good feeling!

As far as weigh in, well I think we all know how that turned out. I gained 2 pounds, but I totally expected it, so I’m just going to go into denial about it and pretend it never happened. I’ll lose 3 pounds this week and be back on track – you watch me!

Hope everyone has a good day!

* I hate using the term “leader” – it makes me think I’m in a cult or girl scouts or something. But that’s the lingo, so I guess I’ll have to get used to it!

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You want a waaamburger with your french cries???

I just deleted a very long post about how much crap I ate Saturday and how there has been much life-suckage the last two weeks.  It was a very “woe is me, pity me” type post and frankly, it was bringing me down.  So I decided to scrap it and start over.

Basically, here’s what I said: I ate like sh*t Saturday.  I have been doing ALOT of emotional eating the last two weeks and wondering why.  So I’m going to get to the bottom of that.  I refuse to be a slave to my emotions for the next 40 years, and I’m kicking my own ass and getting back in gear.  When I get paid on Wednesday, I will restock my kitchen with healthy options and quit lamenting the fact that all we have is macaroni and 40 kinds of canned vegetables. 

I’ve already racked up some miles on the treadmill and have my ped clipped to my belt, but I just realized that somehow it reset itself, so now those 4000+ steps that I have already taken have disappeared but that’s okay, I can deal. 

It’s all good.  

Peace out.

Is it Friday yet? It is? THANK GOODNESS!!

Oh Friday, how I have yearned for you for four days and now you are here!! Even better than that, you are Friday AFTERNOON which means that at 3:30, I will be the happiest I have been all week. I love you Friday, you’re my favorite!!

Ugh, this has been a week!! A week from the depths of Hades. I’ve been sleep deprived, depressed, stressed, sad, and now finally FINALLY there is light at the end of the tunnel. I think I need to celebrate with a manicure.

I have decided that for now, at least, I will not quit the challenge. I dug my pedometer out of my underwear drawer – the place where I keep all things that I might need someday, along with many many baby teeth that the tooth fairy has collected over the last 11 years.

**TANGENT AHEAD** Why am I keeping these baby teeth? What do I think I will do with them? Make a necklace or something?? Why does it feel sacrilegious to throw them away? These are the questions that keep me up at night, okay well, not really, but I do wonder. **TANGENT OVER**

Anyway, back to the challenge…I’m going to track my steps and take more steps than I think I need and although I certainly don’t expect to catch up to the others, I am going to at least make an effort. I don’t like quitting anything because I already have *fear of failure* issues, and I don’t need to add to them.

Food-wise, Honeycomb cereal has been the death of my diet this week. Damn that sweet-honey goodness!!! If I don’t have a loss next weigh in, I’ll know why. If loving Honeycomb is wrong, I’m not so sure I want to be right.

What I do want, however, is listed below for no other reason than I am feeling the need to list it:

Strappy sandals
A Pedicure to show off feet in said sandals
A really comfy sundress
Really good chocolate (just one piece)
A gathering of my good friends
A margarita
A pool to sit beside at sunset while I sip said margarita
A new ride (the Honda is old, so very very old)
A cuddle with my husband
A really funny movie
New work out clothes
Lots of techno pop music on my mp3
Muscular legs
Really nice perfume
And last but not least, a really comfy downy bed on which I can take a really long nap during a sunny afternoon. Sigh
Have a good weekend friends!

Putting a face to a name

Hey all!!  This is me.  Not a great picture, but I am still trying to work on uploading pictures on my blog – just haven’t had time to do a real good one. 

Tons of work to do today, so this is going to be it for today!  Hopefully tomorrow I will have time for a longer post. 

The challenge is challenging

Okay Debby – you caught me. I have been purposely avoiding talking about TL’s challenge because frankly, I’m sucking at it. Am thinking of quitting because the suggested mileage per week is 42.Think about that for a moment…42miles PER WEEK. SEVEN DAYS to walk 42 miles.

That’s SIX miles per day. Every day. Every week. For many many weeks!! Wears me out just thinking about it.

I’m doing good to get in 10 miles a week (last week was 8). When I signed up for this, I knew I wouldn’t be able to do 2 hours of walking every day, but I thought, “this will be fun and it will get me motivated to work out every day, even though I’ll be a little behind everyone else.” Key word in that sentence is *little*. I’m not just a little behind, I’m waaaayyyyyy behind everyone now.

So maybe it would be better to bow out now, and just keep going at my own pace and do my own little challenge in my head. I don’t know.

I’m this close to dropping out.

In other news, there is this radio commercial running right now for a tanning salon. The woman doing the voice on the commercial sounds like a really bored, deep voiced Romanian woman and she’s talking about the freaking news. I think there may be some joke to this, but it’s over my head. Anyone have any idea what this may be about??? It’s completely annoying and I may never go to this particular salon just because of this commercial. Not that I go to tanning salons – my lily-white legs can attest to that, but if I were to go, I would not go to this particular branch of salons because I find their commercial to be a kin to fingernails on a chalkboard. I’m just sayin…

Weigh in yesterday was not bad, but not good either. I stayed the same this week. Still sitting at 179, but I’m really not surprised I didn’t have a loss. Too many *one bite of this*, and *just a taste or two of that* went on all week. So I’m going to try to be extra careful about tracking this week and getting all my water in. And oh yeah, more walking. I need to start taking some vitamins and supplements – what do you all take? I know I should be taking calcium, and a multivitamin, but what else do you all recommend?

Off to do more work – YAY WORK!!! ;)

An apple is a poor substitute.

Awhile back I posted on the WW message boards that half of one puffy coconut-marshmallow covered Snoball tastes just the same as a whole one. With the added bonus of fewer calories.Today someone brought chocolate sheet cake to work. The kind with the pecans in the chocolate frosting. The kind my grandma used to make for every birthday.

I had a very very small piece of it.

That was four hours ago and I have not stopped thinking about it all afternoon. I keep telling myself that it isn’t going to taste any better or worse than it did when I had my teeny tiny bite of it earlier, and it wont. This is the only thing that has kept me from scarfing the whole plate at once. I have incredible restraint, no?

In reality, I really really really REALLY want a very big giant humongous piece of that cake and I want to eat it like there’s no tomorrow! I want to keep eating cake until I am satisfied and bloated and miserable.

But I’m not going to do that. Because I have incredible restraint. And also because I have built that cake up in my mind so much that there’s no way it will taste as good as I dream it will taste. And besides, I’ve already had some, plus I have weigh in tomorrow and my desire for smaller numbers on the scale outweighs my desire for the chocolate heaven that beckons me from the break room.

I will not eat the cake. I will not eat the cake. I will not eat the cake.

And just in case you were wondering, no, an apple does not taste like chocolate cake, even if you want it to.

Friday Fun Day!

Hey everyone!!  Happy Friday!!

Check your salad carefully!!

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The above picture came from one of my new favorite sites:  www.failblog.wordpress.com

There’s some funny stuff on there!  

Here’s a few more favorites:

Go check out Karly’s post on weight loss/gain.  Very timely for those of us losing it in the control department (and by us, I mean me!).

http://www.firstourselves.com/

 

Also, this guy is Highlarious!!  I think Laura mentioned him awhile back, and he’s totally worth another look – so funny!!

http://unstarved.com/

 

And h ere’s a couple of time wasters if you have nothing better to do..

http://icanhascheezburger.com/

http://ihasahotdog.com/

 

Okay gang, gotta get going!  Have a great weekend!!  

Chester, you bad boy you!!

I have an apple every day at 2pm. This is my afternoon snack and usually keep the ravenous hunger monster at bay until I can get home and get settled and get a decent healthy *after school* snack.
Yesterday, I did not have my apple. I don’t know why, I just wasn’t particularly hungry so I thought I could skip the apple.

 

 
I was wrong.

 

 
By the time I picked up the kids from the babysitters, got home, went through the mail, kicked off my shoes, and got settled, I WAS RAVENOUS!!!!
I had already planned on eating some carrots and hummus (mmm…hummus), so I dove right in. Then I thought that the hummus really needed a chip to go with it. So I got about 3 chips and ate the hummus with chips and it was good. Yea, verily, it was good.

 

 
Then on my way back to the kitchen, I noticed my daughter had gotten the Cheetos out of the cabinet. My little one wanted some, so I got her a few…and that’s when the carnage began.

 

 
I’m still a little fuzzy about what happened, but I’m pretty sure it wasn’t pretty.

 

 
I ate so many damn Cheetos that I had a stomach ache after I finally FORCED myself to back away from the bag! A thick film of cheese powder covered my fingers and was probably on my face too, although I was too ashamed to face myself in the mirror.

 

 

 

WHY DO YOU HAVE THIS HOLD ON ME, CHEETOS???? WHY?????

 

 
For me, Cheetos are like the bad boy you just couldn’t stay away from in high school. I know they’re not good for me, but when that orange and blue bag looks my way and winks at me, I go weak in the knees. “Just one won’t hurt”, I tell myself. HA!! The next thing I know, I’m staring at the phone willing it to ring, but does it? No! And then I wonder what I did to make him not want to call me, and … oh wait…we were talking about Cheetos, right?

 

 
Anyway, Hello my name is Jill and I’m a Cheetoholic.
I think I need therapy to work on my issues.

Better today

I was so down yesterday morning, but by the afternoon I was starting to feel a little better. Then after work yesterday I found out that we are getting a big fat refund on our taxes! So fat that my husband said I could take about $800 and go buy myself a bunch of new clothes!! I said “really? Are you serious???” to which he replied, “Yeah I’m serious! You deserve it!” Holy Shoe Shopping Batman!!! I already have a list made up and the day that money gets deposited, I shall go to the bank and withdraw my fun money IMMEDIATELY and hit the stores! I am one of those moms who always puts everyone else’s needs before my own, so if (and that’s a big IF usually) there is extra cash, it goes towards the kids or things for the house or whatever random bill happens to pop up. But I am already planning on being totally selfish with this money!! With this refund we are also going to be able to pay off some debts, like the hospital bill from when I had my third child THREE YEARS AGO!!! That will be such a relief to get that off our backs, so YAY REFUND!!!
There was something else great that happened yesterday, but now I can’t remember what it was…oh yeah – weigh in!! I lost 1.4 pounds bringing my total to 7 pounds lost. WooHoo!! Considering its TOM, and considering the amount of crap I ate on Saturday, that’s pretty amazing stuff. I think the loss comes from all the walking I’ve been doing every morning – hey, this exercise stuff really works! (Thanks TL!)
I have a stealth plan to get some strength training in during the work day. Usually they guys will pop in my office unexpectedly, so I’ve been a little gun shy about doing any kind of exercise in my office, for fear someone will walk in and see me on the floor huffing and puffing through a sit up. However, (here’s the stealth part) they take a break at 9:00 and again at 1:30, so for 15 or 20 minutes they are occupied with their coffee and talk of the big game or the big fish or the big truck or whatever big thing they happen to be discussing, so that is when I will squeeze in a few crunches and some push ups, maybe even a squat or two! Completely brilliant plan, right? I thought so!
Okay, gotta get to work! Have a great day everyone!!

I’m sad

Feeling a little sad today. My aunt’s long time beau (of 25 years) died Sunday evening. He had been sick for a long time and his death was expected, but I feel bad for my aunt. I think I met him once a long time ago, so I didn’t really know him. They live in another state and don’t get to come here to visit very often. My aunt of course is devastated. She took care of him for a long time, and I’m not sure how she’ll do now that she is without him. They didn’t live together until just recently, but he was such a huge part of her life, I don’t know how she’ll handle this.Then today I just learned that my boss’ stepdaughter died last night. She was in her early 30′s, no kids, but married to her high school sweetheart. She had a heart transplant several years ago because of a defect in her own heart and she was doing really well. All her checkups were good and she was feeling fine. Then last night, her husband woke up to hear her gasping for breath, and then she stopped breathing and he couldn’t wake her up. Just like that, she is gone.

It’s strange, because I didn’t really know these people who have passed, but I am still sad. One suffered for so long, and the other was gone in one breath.

And then I heard on the radio that a new baby was born today, and it makes me realize, it just keeps going. Life ends for one and begins for another without missing a beat.

I’ll post tomorrow with something a little more sun-shiny, but today the cloud that is over me needs attention. And I just can’t think of anything else to write about today.