I was thinking the other day about why it is so easy for some people to lose weight and so hard for me. Well, if I am going to be totally honest with myself, it is because while I really want to be healthy and slim, I don’t want to do the things that go along with it. There. I said it. I don’t want to change my habits. I like eating sweets and watching movies on the couch for 2 or 3 hours. I like reading a book all afternoon. I like to eat casseroles and brownies. I don’t like to sweat. I don’t like spending and hour on the treadmill and I don’t want to have to drive 20 minutes to the nearest walking trail. I live on a dead end street out in the country, and to walk up and down the road is about as boring as being on the treadmill. I feel clumsy and awkward doing work out DVDs, so I avoid those like the plague. I don’t want to take diet pills, or go to meetings, or cut out entire food groups. Yeah, I know I sound like a spoiled brat, digging in my heels and being stubborn to the detriment of no one but myself. But that’s how I feel.
So having said that, I still really want to be happy in this body, and that means getting rid of some of this fat. Actually, I do love this body, just not the fat that covers it. So what do I do? I’m not far enough along in my body acceptance journey to just be happy with what I’ve got, and honestly, I don’t think I ever will be as long as I am this out of shape. How do I motivate myself to make changes that I don’t want to make? How do I convince my brain that exercising is more fun than say, sitting at the computer and reading blogs for hours? I’m just curious if there is anyone out there who started out this way, but overcame their own stubborn will and is now a healthy and happy person. If you are out there, I would love to hear from you, so feel free to offer any advice you’ve got. Thanks and have a great weekend!
